Miserable at Best

Chapter 5: Coming Home

Author's Note:

Uhm.. Yeah... Chapter Five. :) Hope you enjoy! ^_^

Andrej is such a very sweet friend to me. But I guess it wouldn't be right anymore if I stay with him longer.

"A-are you sure you're going home now?..." He asked hesitating to let me go.

"Yeah. I'm sure now. Besides, my father is surely finding me right now. So I guess I have to go home right away..." I smiled assuring him I'm already fine. Even though deep inside I'm still not and I just want to stay longer with him. But I have a feeling it wouldn't be good anymore if I do.

"Are you really sure?... But Amanda you just... I mean... I know it's not that easy for you to overcome it. Are you really sure?..." He asked confused and puzzled.

"I'm fine Andrej, don't worry!!" I chuckled. "You're right it's not that easy for me, but I know I will overcome it soon! I've been overcoming lots of things worse than that. So I'm sure I would forget it soon." I smiled at him which are all true. I mean being beaten up and hurt by your father everyday can be considered worse than being raped for one night right? So I'm sure I can make up through that. Well, I know it's a very stupid idea to go back to my abusive father again, but I'm still his daughter and I just couldn't abandon him as well. I know he still needs my company.

He looked at me unbelieving to what I said. But then he sighed and just shook his head.

"Okay... Just if there's any problem, don't hesitate to come over. And also don't forget to call if you need help again. I'm assuring you, you can count on me." He smiled sweetly.

I smiled back at him and pulled him into a hug.

He has done so many good things to me and I'm sure I wouldn't be able to pay all of it. He's very kind and very sweet. And I'm very thankful that I met him and he helped me to bring back my hope.

"Thanks Andrej! You're such a very good friend!!! I'm so grateful I met you! Thank you very much!!" I said happily and hug him tightly.

"It's nothing. I'm glad I helped you.Just don't forget you can still come to me, okay?..." He said still with a hint of hesitancy in his tone.

"Don't worry, I'll come over to visit you even if I don't have problems! You won't feel alone again!!" I chuckled and hugged him tightly.

I pulled away and look at him. He gave me a small smile but his eyes still show hesitations. I just chuckled and walked up to him. Then I gave him a quick kiss on his cheeks.

"Thank you very much!! You're a very good friend!" I said as I stepped back.

His eyes widened and his mouth agaped. I laughed at his reaction and he just looked down.

"Okay so, guess I'll go now." I said and started to walk up to his door.

He looked up at me and followed me. He then gave me a very sweet smile before I went out of his apartment. He lead me out of the building until we reached the main door.

"Take care!" He said as he put his hands in his pocket and looked at me.

"I will! Thanks again!" I smiled. "Bye!!" I then said as I start to walk away from him.

He just waved his hand and smiled. But he watched me walked away and went back inside the building when I'm far enough from him.

I smile widely as I think of him. He's very sweet and caring. Whoever just get him would be a very lucky girl. I'll admit he's pretty good-looking and very nice. So it's not impossible for him to be loved easily. And maybe I'm affected by him. I just can't take him off of my mind and it doesn't bother me. And I'm liking the thought that we are so close to each other.

But I noticed something when I kissed his cheek. He seemed very shocked and stunned. Like it really surprised him a lot. But his face didn't blush. His eyes showed surprise, but his face don't. Well it's not a big deal for me, but I just can't stop wondering about that... Oh well! Maybe he's used to that kind of surprise. Because as what I said, he has the look and attitude. So it's not surprising if he's adorn by lots of women.

When I reached the house, my happiness slowly faded and fear starts to dominate my mind again. Sure as hell I'm dead to my father now. I just ran away the last night, and didn't come back yesterday. So it's really a big trouble for me today.

I slowly approached the door. I took deep breaths before I slowly turned the knob. Then carefully, I pushed the door open and peeked inside.

The house is still a mess as it was when I left. But more junks and craps of my father are scattered everywhere.

I slowly stepped inside and shut the door behind me carefully. I look around searching for my father. Then I walked upstairs when I didn't find him in the living room and in the kitchen. I checked his room and saw him sleeping on his bed. His room is such a mess and bottles and clothes are thrown everywhere. He seemed very miserable when I was gone.

I didn't dare to clean up his room and disturb him. No way will I let myself to be hurt again after being saved. So I just shut his door and walked to my room. But I gasped when I open the door and saw my room. It is so messed up and all my things are scattered around. I slowly went inside with my hands covering my mouth and tears forming in my eyes. I shakily pick all the things up and look around the whole place. It looks like my father poured all his anger in my room when I was gone.

I heard the next door opened and footsteps echoed in the hallway. I slowly looked at my father as he showed up on the doorway of my room. He got shocked when he saw me standing in the middle of the room. But his expression quickly turned to anger and annoyance.

"What the hell are you doing here?!! You shouldn't have come back!!" He shouted in a raspy tone and quickly walked up to me.

Then his hard knuckle quickly hit my face before I even knew it. I fell straightly on the floor and hit my head on something hard. I didn't see what it was because of the other stuffs scattered. But it made my head to bleed and my vision blurred.

"You're such a shit you cunt!! You shouldn't showed yourself here again!" He shouted and pulled me up by the hair.

"Stop please!!!" I cried out hardly as he dragged me out of my room.

I managed to hold on the doorframe of my room. But he pulled me forcefully and I let go of the thing. He slides me against the wooden floor and stops when he reached the stairwell. Then he threw me down the stairs and I stumble down it painfully.

I cry as the pain shoot in my whole body. I breathe heavily as I watch him walk down the stairs angrily. His eyes are blazing in fierce and his face is so red of anger. His jaws are clenched tightly as he looked down at me scarily.

"You're a bullshit!" He screamed and kicked me on the ground.

I scream because of pain and agony in every kick that he gives to me. Soon I managed to get his foot and stopped it from kicking.

"Stop!!!" I screamed and pushed him away.

He lost his balance and fell on the stairs. My mind suddenly went blank and my vision darkened. All of a sudden, I jumped onto him and hit him repeatedly on the face. I scream at the top of my lungs as I keep on punching his face. He managed to push me away and I fell hardly back on the floor.

"Fuck you! Bitch!!" He said as he attempted to kick me again. But I quickly rolled to my side and avoided his foot.

He screamed and cursed me when his foot hit the wall instead of me. As fast as I could, I stood up and ran to the kitchen. He quickly followed me and pulled me by the hair when he reached me. He then starts to hit me so bad until I nearly blacked out.

"Fuck you for thinking you can fight me!!! I'm telling you, you wouldn't be able to do that... Never!!! I'm going to kill you before you even try to hurt me!!!" He said and hit my head hardly on the floor.

I feel a very painful sting in my head before my vision gets dark and my consciousness gets lost. I even heard him cursed things before I completely blacked out and fade away.