Miserable at Best

Chapter 18: Escape

          I've been staring blanky at the white nothingness that surrounds me for a very long time. My head is leaning against the wall behind me and my bangs slightly fall down my sight, so my eyes are now used to the brightness around me. My breathing is steady and calm. Good for me because I had been killing myself from holding my anger in my chest.

The silence is quite helping to calm my nerves so it's not that bothering to me. But it was broken by a soft creak from the door and the footsteps that approached me.

"Hey... Here's your food now. Are you alright?" The nurse smiled and slowly unchained my hands.

I shot my eyes at her but didn't move my head. She was a bit surprised, or rather scared I can say, but she quickly shot a sweet smile and handed me the tray.

"Here, you can eat now. And later I'll give you your medicines so you can rest after, is that alright?.." She said sweetly and brushed his soft hand on my hair.

She seems so comfortable and sweet around me. And that makes me feel odd. But it's somewhat comforting at some place, so I don't think of it that much.

She looks at me sweetly as I stare at her quite confused. She then sighed and turn around walking away to do her other works.

She was getting close to the door when an idea popped in my head.

"Uhm, hey..." My voice cracked from the very first time tonight.

She turned on her heels with a shocked expression on her face. But then she slowly softened her features as she tried to hide her shock.

"Uhm, yes?.. Is there anything you want?..." She stuttered softly taking a few steps towards me.

"I ah... I need to go to the bathroom... Can I?..." I said looking at her.

She seemed surprised on what I said. But then she nodded and walked back to me completely.

"Okay, let's go there..." She said and helped me stand up.

I slide my hand on the wall for a better balance as we walk down the hallway. I realize it's already evening because all the lights on the ceilings are now turned on. We turned to the left and walked down on it until we reached the bathroom door.

"I'll just wait you here, okay?" She said and opened the door for me to let in.

I slowly stepped inside and she closed the door. Once I already locked it, I look around the whole room. It's just as same as an ordinary bathroom, and as usual this is painted in white. But the one that makes me smile is the window located on the wall above the bowl. I can see the darkness outside through it and that fact just excites me more.

I look behind me and think about the nurse. She wouldn't surely notice that I escape. So I quickly stepped up the toilet bowl and unlocked the window.

The cool breeze of the night blew on my face as gaze around outside. This is such a perfect time for everything is dark and quiet. And no one is around so escaping would be as easy as killing a fly for me.

I started to climb on the tank of the toilet and push my head out. The window is quite higher than I thought. But I'm so dedicated to get out from here so I have to strive.

I look around and checked no one would really notice me from here before I climb even higher and push my body out more.

"Uhm... Are you done?" I heard the nurse asked behind the door.

That made me turn my head back and I almost fall from doing it. Good thing I quickly held on the windowpane and prevented myself from falling. My breathing heavies and my heart races up. Sure as hell I would have a bloody face if I fell... So I'm really thankful I didn't.