Darcy's P.O.V
By noon, Dan and I had sprawled ourselves across the couch, on body's connected in a tangled mess of limbs. His intoxicating breath was hitting my neck as I stared at the figures on the TV screen that had been turned on at some point. I felt like a Disney princess, my feelings completely out of this world. Dan was absolutely perfect, in every way possible. He understood me and that was something I needed after many, many years without anyone to talk to, even before I was kidnapped. In fact, since my parents died, I didn't have ANYONE in my life as caring and loving and Dan and Phil.
When Dan had told me about the fit I had the day before, I remembered almost instantly. It must have been the paint that triggered all my bottles up emotions and memories to explode. But I felt relieved now.
Suddenly Dan's laugh shook my body and I snapped out of my thoughts. His laugh was perfect, so was his smile, and his eyes, and his hair, and his dimples and his, No! I can't continue thinking about him like this! I knew I needed to stop, but it was impossible! I loved him, I really did and now it was becoming out of hand. Constantly zoning out and having these fantasies and it was all so wrong! We were friends and if I wasn't careful, I was going to stuff things up!
"I think I might just go for a walk, or just head outside for a bit okay?" I asked, mentally kicking myself for moving away from Dan. My body felt cold and I wished I could just lie back down but my head was crowded with Dan and I needed to cool off.
"Uh sure, you okay?" He asked, sitting up straight as I stood up, stretching my back.
"Yeah, just need some fresh air, I'll be back soon" I assured him and walked to the door, opening it and stepping out of the apartment. I took the stairs down, a little exercise wouldn't be bad for me. Once I had left the building and was outside, I strolled down the street, taking note of the directions back.
Why do I love Dan so much? Was what I was thinking. I knew why of course, I could list hundreds of reasons why but why did I? What caused my feelings too become so strong and irreversible? I needed to stop now, before I did something stupid. But how, was that even possible?
Phil, I thought. Phil. I would ask him. I trusted him enough that I knew he wouldn't get mad. In fact, maybe I didn't even have to tell him it was Dan. I could just say I knew someone and I loved them and what do I do? But then, that would be too obvious, or he could get the wrong idea. GOD DAMN IT! I would tell him, I would tell him soon because I needed too!
I came to the familiar Starbucks, the one Dan and I had been to yesterday. I only realised now that I was following the path to the park, which I didn't want to. So I turned around and headed home, knowing what I must do at some point.
Once I had reached the front door, and opened it I noticed Dan was putting his coat on and already had shoes on.
"Hi, where are you going?" I asked, he shot his head up in surprise and I watched his worried expression turned calm.
"YOU'RE BACK! You didn't bring your phone with you and it had been over an hour so I got worried and decided to go find you, are you sure you're alright?" He asked, now taking his jacket off.
"Yeah, I'm fine" I lied, and Dan could tell but I knew he wouldn't push it. He took off his shoes, waiting silently for me to take mine off as well. I smiled up at him and internally sighed, regretting that decision because he smiled back, his dimples stabbing me in the heart. I had to stop myself from staring, placing my shoes neatly by the door and standing up.
"Hey, where's Phil?" I asked, slightly stuttering with nerves that I hadn't noticed till now.
"Uh, probably still in his room..." Dan said, fixing his hair slightly. I nodded and thanked him before heading through the living room and down the hallway. Dan didn't follow and I made sure as I knocked on Phil's door, and entered after permission, Dan wasn't in sight.
"You alright?" Phil asked, taking his eyes away from his laptop and facing me. I gulped and suddenly my mouth went dry. How had I thought this was going to be easy?
"Uh, Phil? I need to tell you something um, yeah" Phil raised an eye brow, and then smiled at me calmly.
"Sure, what is it?" I opened my mouth but shut it again, probably looking like a goldfish. I didn't know how to word it, and my heart was thumping in my chest. What if Phil got mad, what if he told Dan? I started doubting whether it was a good idea and after a very long silence I put on a fake smile.
"Oh I was just gonna tell you that I am gonna watch TV and um, yeah" I mentally slapped myself. I'm so un-subtle!
"Darcy? What is bothering you?" I gulped, this was such a bad idea.
"Nothing, I promise" I said a little too quickly. Phil sighed, probably upset that I wasn't telling him the truth.
"Seriously Phil, it's nothing" I assured him and left his room, not wanting to bother him any further. I shuffled down the hallway to my room where I shut the door and flopped onto my bed. What do I do now? I literally couldn't physically tell Phil and that was a major problem. Maybe I had to do it when I wasn't thinking about it too much?
Maybe I should stop loving Dan, oh wait, that was impossible.
I luff you <3
Stay beYOUtiful!
Baii!!!!
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Splattered Paint - Dan Howell
FanfictionDarcy Thompson, kidnapped for four years. The painter, orphan, with memories haunting her from the back of her mind. But when she finally snaps, paint will splatter, hearts will be broken and a new life ruined. Can a young man and his friend with ma...