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Poem by: yours truly
Title: Isang Letra
#SLEDerpHerp
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"Elmo..." she said. It felt like ages since I felt this kind of happiness by just hearing my name being called by someone. I know. This is totally wrong since we're not together anymore. And she's with her boyfriend pero iba eh. She has this certain effect in me. This certain... Feeling.
"Rob, dude." the guy beside her said and even offered a hand. I awkwardly took it and we shook hands. "I'll leave you two alone." he said and even planted a kiss on her forehead.
"Hey..." I greeted again. She just smiled and looked away. "Uhm... K-kamusta ka na?"
"Sakto lang." she said.
"Uhm... Ano nga pala... Uhm... Nagbirthday pala last week si Lolo Jorda. Kamusta na siya?" I asked. She looked at me curiously then shrugged her shoulders and went back to look at nothing.
"He's okay. Strong as ever."
"That's good to hear. Si Yaya Ana pala nabanggit sa akin na nagkakausap pa daw pala kayo."
"A few times. Nangamusta lang." she replied.
"Ah... Yung pasalubong pala ni Ate Iara sayo natanggap mo na ba?"
"Oo." tipid an sabi niya. I nodded slowly and heaved a deep sigh.
"Uhm... Julie... Ano kasi... Y-yung box..."
"Nakarating na sayo? Buti naman." aniya. I scratched the back of my head and nodded slowly.
"Hindi mo na sana binalik. I mean, I gave them all to you as a gift. Di ko naman pinahiram lang sayo." sabi ko.
"No need. I gave them back because I want to finally let go of the things that hurt me. I'm fixing my life now and I want to delete all the bad memories in my life." sabi niya naman. I heaved a deep sigh saka napatingala.
"But those gifts have happy memories with them." I said.
"They don't. Everytime I look at them, I always hear the last words you told me. It overpowers the happy memories those memorabilias have in them. Sa tuwing nakikita ko silang pakalat-kalat hindi ko maiwasang isipin lahat ng mga pinangako mo na napako rin naman."
"Julie..."
"Can we just be professionals here? This is a place for work. Not for personal reasons." sabi niya pa and drank her champagne. Muli siyang tumawag ng waiter at kumuha ng isa pang baso ng champagne dito.
"I just want to know if you're okay..." I drift off. I saw her look at me with anger. Her eyes blazing with fury, her lips forming a straight thin line and her brows furrowed.
"Why do you want to know if I'm okay?" she asked.
"I-I just want to know k--"
"Maibabalik mo ba lahat ng panahong nasayang ko sa buhay ko nung umalis ka? Maibabalik mo ba yung dating ako? Maibabalik mo ba yung tayo? Hindi naman diba? Kasi ikaw ang unang sumuko eh. Ikaw ang unang bumitaw, Elmo." she started crying and all I wanted to do was hug her and take all the pain away but I can't. Because if I do that, I will only hurt her even more. "Alam mo, nakamove on na ko eh. Okay na ko. Pero heto ka nanaman, hinihila mo nanaman ako pababa."
"I'm sorry... Julie please patawarin mo na ko. I know I've hurt you before pero pinagsisisihan ko na yun." I tried to reach for her hand but she took a step back. She doesn't even want me to get close to her.
