Too Weird To Live, Too Rare To Die!

Chapter Five - Hiatus

2011

(Joe's Point of View)

We have been on hiatus for two years now. Andy and I are doing another project, well technically band called The Damned Things. We can't get enough of each other can't we? We all have been keeping in touch here in there, correction, we have been keeping in contact a lot. Patrick is doing a solo project and Pete is doing his own little thing The Black Cards. It has been peaceful actually, I am not really missing Fall Out Boy at all to be honest and there hasn't been anything exciting going on.



(Andy's Point Of View)

Joe and I are in The Damned Things the end. He explained how both of us feel over the hiatus and what's going on with everyone, but I still laugh at the fact that Joe and I cannot get enough of each other.



(Pete's Point Of View)

The band actually came to agreements to go on hiatus instead of breaking up completely, but how long is that going to be? So, I am in this duo The Black Cards to keep me busy.

I haven't seen any of the guys at all since then, but we kept in touch a lot. Joe and Andy in a band together The Damned Things and Patrick is doing a solo project and is on tour with Panic! At The Disco apparently which I still don't believe. I have listened to his album Soul Punk, which was decent, and I still deny the fact he went solo. That is not like him because he isn't much of a spotlight guy. Man I miss seeing him, a lot. Yes, I am still in love with him even after these two years of torment.

I have been heavily drinking, cutting myself so badly I had to go to the hospital multiple times, I attempted suicide countless times. I am just a man that doesn't deserve to live. All I am is a waste of space and worthless. I didn't really start feeling this way until Patrick told me he is engaged which made my furious and jealous. He asked me to be his Best Man, but I lied and told him I am to busy. Shouldn't I feel happy for him? Well I'm not. I'm devastated for reasons I have already said so you know.



(Patrick's Point Of View)

Hiatus has been awesome, to a certain extent. I am just mostly excited because of my solo album Soul Punk I have released. Just so we are clear, it does not consist of Fall Out Boy. It is R and B influenced not rock influenced. Yes there are some rock elements, but not rock based. I am currently on tour with Panic! At The Disco to promote Soul Punk.

The downside of the hiatus is that I haven't seen Pete, Andy nor Joe, but we do keep in touch frequently. Pete is doing a duo called The Black Cards, Joe and Andy are in this other band called The Damned Things. It still makes me laugh. What? I find it hysterical that Joe and Andy can't be separated so it seems.

I am getting married to my true love Elisa, in the upcoming year. I am super happy, everyone else seems proud for me. To bad they can't make it especially Pete because he was going to be my Best Man, but he said he was going to be busy. I understand completely, but it's still heartbreaking.

Did I forget to mention I transformed myself? No I am not a Transformer if that's what you're thinking. I'm no longer that fat, side burned, insecure guy that hid from everything anymore. I decided that I don't care, well I do just it doesn't bother me. I decided to do what made me feel better and that was getting healthy, cut my hair short, shave my sideburns off and dressing nice. I am starting to feel more confident within myself. People don't recognize me anymore, in a good way. Also, I am no longer depressed in fact far from it.



Halloween

Standing on stage waiting to get my cue to start singing. After a few seconds, the lights flash on, playing Ghostbusters. Don't judge Ghostbusters is my favorite Eighties movie and it suits this environment.

I guess the little outfit was attractive because I heard the a few comments like, "Sexy beast!" or "Damn!" and so forth. Mostly coming from the males may I add. It was just a red suit with me wearing light up devil horns nothing really. I wanted to be a zombie not a devil, but whatever.

Half way through the show the "make-up" I wore which was baking soda with a lot of hair spray, started to sweat in my eyes. I sit down behind the drums. "I never thought baking soda on your face would burn you. Well, I was wrong. My face is on fire right now."

Some people in the audience exclaim, "Aw!"

"No, "aw" I'm an idiot!" I laugh, "Anyways." I start my "drum solo" then ending it singing, "This is how we do it..." The crowd goes nuts, litterally. Okay, fine they did not turn into nuts, but that would be cool though. Mmm nuts, I want nuts now.

Halfway through the song Brendon runs out on stage singing along with me. He is in no clothes except this bright hot pink thong speedo thing, the crowd goes berzerk. He goes up to me, stops me from drumming, grabs my drumsticks and throws them into the crowd. He sits on my lap facing me putting his arms around my neck. There is a mixture of ooh's and aah's. To me he is big on me considering I am a short little guy. I blush of course.

"Uh, Brendon? What are you doing?" I laugh my head off.

"Don't act like you don't like it Patrick." He scoots more up my lap closer to my face.

"I don't like it, just get off. Please?"

"Oh someone's excited, oops," he looks down at my excitement then looks back up to my face, "Well since you want to be a meanie, fine!" He gets off my lap, kisses my cheek and runs off the stage. What just happened?

"Anyways. Before I got rudely interrupted by Mr.Urie." I get up from the drums and goes to the front of the stage singing Dance Miserable. We go through a few song before ending the show.

"Goodnight! Be safe kids!" I wink at the crowd, I take the light up devil horns off my head and throws them in the crowd before I walk off swinging my hips.