Chapter 57

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*3 hours later*

Josh's POV:

"Uncle Josh, I need to tell Lucas, Enid and Farkle that we haven't heard anything." Riley tells me softly.
"Okay, could you just, not tell them about the baby, especially as we don't even know whether it's okay or not." I ask her, she nods and hugs me before walking off. I stand up and start to pace around the empty room.
Why haven't we heard anything about Maya? Why did she collapse? Will the baby be okay? I keep asking myself over and over again, I just don't know why Maya collapsed, she needs to be okay. We've only been married 6 weeks, we are meant to be married forever, I can't loose her, ever. And the baby, I don't want to loose the baby, we haven't even seen it yet, I really want to be a dad. And Maya will be such a cute mom. I love them both so much, I just need to know they are-
"Mr Matthews?" My thoughts are interrupted by a doctor coming into the room.
"Yeah? Is Maya okay? Why did she collapse?" I ask quickly.
"Mrs Matthews collapsed due to stress, she was suffering from severe exhaustion, and was malnourished. She also had an infected wound on hip. Mr Matthews, were you aware that your wife self-harmed? There were many self-inflicted cuts on her body."
"Yeah, I did, but I thought she was clean. She tried to commit suicide a few years ago, and has a few self-harm relapses since but I thought she'd finally stopped. I threw out her blades with her again a week or two ago. But are they okay now?" I explain and ask.
"Yes, your wife is still resting now, but when she wakes up we will do an ultrasound to double check on the baby, you are welcome to be there for it." He explains.
"Thank you. Can I see Maya now?"
"Very well, but she is still sleeping."
"It's okay I don't care." I say and rush to her room.
"Maya!" I cry as I get to the room and sit next to her. I grab her hand and hold it tightly. "I love you." I whisper kissing her hand, and placing my free hand on her stomach. "I love you too." I say leaning towards her stomach and kissing that too, and sitting back down. She's so beautiful, even when she is asleep. I notice all the bandages on her ankles and upper arms, I'm sure there is more under her hospital gown too.
"Maya, you told me you stopped. We need to get you better, baby." I whisper to her, referring to her cuts. "I don't want to see you like this. Maya you're my wife, I love you. I thought you knew that any problems you had you had to share with me, we are a team baby. You gotta trust me on this, and we'll get through anything together. I love you." I tell her sleeping body as I stroke the rings on her ring finger.
"Joshua?" I hear a fragile voice say.
"I'm right here Maya."
"I love you too. I'm sorry I didn't stay clean, I shouldn't have cut again, I need to start think of our baby." She starts to cry.
"Hey, baby, it's okay. It's okay, you don't need to cry, I'm here." I say, quickly getting up to hold her tightly.
"The baby is okay right?" She asks, rubbing her stomach with her hand.
"Yeah, I'll get the doctor and then we can see it."
"Really? We get to see it?"
"Yeah."
"Thank you."
"For what?"
"Being the best husband." She tells me and I go and find the doctor and then go back to Maya.
A few moments later, the doctor comes with the ultrasound machine.
"Okay, Maya, this may be a little cold." He warns, before squeezing some blue gel onto her bare stomach. She squeezes my hand as she shivers at the temperature of it. Then the doctor rubs the wand of the machine around Maya's stomach, and then an image appears on the screen.

 Then the doctor rubs the wand of the machine around Maya's stomach, and then an image appears on the screen

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"And there is baby Matthews." He tells us.
"Wow. It's so small." I say, mesmerised.
"That's actually our baby. In me. Oh my gosh. Josh we made that." Maya says, tears falling from her face.
"And here is the heartbeat." The doctor continues, pressing a button to fill the room with the sound of a heartbeat. Our baby's heartbeat.
"Josh." Maya sobs, and I wipe away her tears and she does the same for me, I hadn't noticed I was crying.
"How many pictures would you like?" The doctor asks us.
"8." Maya replies quickly and the doctor leaves to print them.
"8?" I ask.
"You, me, Riley, Dad, your parents, Cory and Topanga, Mr Feeny and Auggie."
"That's cute. But My, you realise we have only told Riley?"
"Yeah, we should tell everyone at Christmas. I won't be showing for ages yet anyway."
"Okay. I love you both." I tell them again.
"And we love you more." Maya says pulling me close and kissing me.
"We'll get through the nightmares though, and your cutting and the morning sickness, Maya, together." I tell her holding her hands.
"Through sickness and in health husband?"
"Through sickness and in health wife." I assure her and kiss her again.

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