Message Unseen ➤ RYDEN/BRALLON/JOSHLER

XVIII

JULY 22ND 2016

brendon urie created a private-chat at 04:12am.
brendon urie added dallon weekes.
brendon urie changed his name to beebo.

beebo: ryan would kill me if he knew i was doing this

beebo: but i need your help rn

beebo: goddamnit dal wake up

dallon weekes: it's past 4am you jackass

beebo: i know i can't sleep

beebo: i'm crying dallon i can't stop crying i

beebo: what do i do fuck

dallon weekes: call me?

beebo: no he's sleeping next to me

dallon weekes: i bet he is...

beebo: he wants me to love him

beebo: he asks me over and over again why i never say the words back

beebo: it's because i've lied enough

beebo: i'm never going to love him and that makes me feel like shit because i want to and he deserves it but i can't

beebo: i don't think i can love anyone dal what's wrong with me

beebo: i'm utterly incapable of it

dallon weekes: calm tf down

dallon weekes: i noticed a similar problem when you never told me either

dallon weekes: even after being in a relationship for a year you couldn't say it and i saw the signs and thought this might come up again

dallon weekes: i'm going to ask you a few questions okay

beebo: fuck fuck fuck

dallon weekes: look calm down it'll be fine

dallon weekes: as much as you're a fucking asshole i care about you and i'm trying to help you

dallon weekes: do you ever feel either too important or not important enough?

dallon weekes: brendon this won't work if you don't answer

beebo: okay and yes

dallon weekes: you get mood swings sometimes yes

beebo: yes

dallon weekes: you want constant admiration and this is why you feel the need to jump back and forth between sexual or romantic partners... or cheat

beebo: yeah...

dallon weekes: and you always get what you want

beebo: i try

dallon weekes: perhaps when you had sex with ryan...

beebo: no we were drunk and i'd never force him into anything like that! that's fucking sick

dallon weekes: you try to concern yourself with the needs and feelings of others but you lie so you're two-faced

beebo: i'm sorry dal

dallon weekes: bren i'm fairly certain you have a minor case of narcissistic personality disorder

dallon weekes: you appear as an empathic person and it's not your fault but

dallon weekes: you're selfish and you want people to love you even though you refuse to love them

beebo: oh god

beebo: but i'm not that narcissistic that i've got a massive fucking ego

dallon weekes: that's not the only symptom

dallon weekes: look i think you owe it to ryan to tell him this and that you kissed me especially bc it's not entirely your fault

dallon weekes: and you two can figure something out

dallon weekes: but if you ever need anything hit me up

beebo: thank you sm dal i will

beebo: i'm sorry i couldn't love you

dallon weekes: look we're in the past

dallon weekes: ryan is the one in your bed now and i'll just have to get over it and be fine with sleeping alone

beebo: you can always ask me for help too

dallon weekes: i don't think you'd care... narcissistic dick ;)

beebo: don't you know it