Rock 49
One of the hardest thing in life is to pretend you're okay when you know deep inside you're not. I need to put on a smile and flaster that with my face to everyone.
Nakahiga ako ngayon sa katre ni lola na nasa labas ng kubo. Tinititigan ko ang madilim na kalangitan. Binibilang ko ang mga bituin sa langit at umaasa na baka sakaling may mapadaang meteor na pwedeng tumupad ng wish ko. Hindi pa rin mabura sa isip ko yung narinig ko sa tawag. I'm sure that's Takahiro's voice and what hurts most is I have an idea who that girl is but, I'm too afraid to acknowledge it.
"Hayyy!" I let a deep sigh out. Nakakapagod mag-isip, sobra. Kinuha ko yung phone ko. I-slide the screen of it para ma-unlock. Tinitigan ko yung wallpaper ko.
"Why did I end up loving you this hard?" pag-kausap ko sa larawan ni Takahiro. "See? You never even try to call me but, know what? Here am I stupidly waiting."
Dito lang kasi sa labas malakas yung signal kaya nagtitiis akong manatili dito sa labas. Umaasa kasi ako na baka tawagan niya kaya kelangan nandito ako sa may signal.
Nagpunta ako sa gallery ng phone ko at pinanuod yung mga pictures namin. Then I saw that picture when he was braiding my hair. That is one of my happiest day because that's the day we kissed. That's the day we listened to music together and that's the day he said he loves me. That's the first day to our thirty-fifth days celebration.
I smiled bitterly. Sobrang bigat ng pakiramdam ko. Ang daming 'sana' na pinanghihinayangan ko. Kung sana andito siya sa tabi ko ngayon, yayakapin ko siya ng sagad sabay kaming mag-i-star gazing. Sana naipakita ko sa kanya yung payapang paraiso ni grandma kung saan ako naging masaya. Sana naikwento ko yung mga masasayang ala-ala na yun sa kanya. Sana madami siyang natuklasan at naranasan na mga bago at magagandang bagay. Hanggang sana na lang lahat.
"Tama na 'to!" Itinigil ko na yung panunuod ng mga pictures namin kasi nasasaktan lang ako lalo kaka-throwback.
Pumunta ako sa music at nagpasyang mag soundtrip na lang.
A Little Braver by New Empire
With December comes the glimmer on her face
And I get a bit nervous
I get a bit nervous now
In the twelve months on I won't make friends with change
When everyone's perfect
Can we start over again?
The playgrounds, they get rusty and your
Heart beats another ten thousand times before
I got the chance to say
I miss you
Pumikit ako at pilit hinahayaang sakupin ng kanta ang sariling isipan.
I intend not to listen to his song to stop myself from hurting.
When it gets hard
I get a little stronger now
I get a little braver now
And when it gets dark
I get a little brighter now
I get a little wiser now
Before I give my heart away
Nag-shuffle na yung song para sa next song and ironically, it still reminds me of him.
Decision by One Ok Rock
Another day
Another life
I wanna live it to the fullest
A little work
A lotta play
Alright
Ashiato tadori ikitsuku basyo
nazoru dakega bokuno jinsei jyanai
We'll never be as young as we are now
BINABASA MO ANG
ONE OK ROCK: Taka's Maker (Completed)
Fanfiction"At the BEGINNING, the CLOCK STRIKES then I met you. After that I became a DREAMER because I only dream of you. As day goes by, my feeling gets DEEPER and DEEPER. I keep on DREAMING ALONE. Little did I know that you became my world. So I made a DECI...
