thoughts on clouds

the reality of him

You didn't fight for me 
Is what I realised as I lay down my swords and my battle plans
I was fighting a losing battle
A one sided love that could only end one way
No half hearted heart to heart could ever piece these two souls back together
For they weren't broken they were ripped,
Torn away from eachother ruthlessly without regard
And no tape, no glue, no desperate lust could fix that
How can you fix a love that was never there
I realised this as I stared into the eyes of my enemy
And only found my own solitude staring back at me
My own eyes peering into me , knowingly
The only battle being fought here was with myself
A long , torturous war , with only one casualty
"you broke your own heart" he said , an ice in his voice I'd always heard as snow
He was right .
My hopes and dreams were my bullets and he was the gun
Every 'I love you' was one round of ammo ready to bring my demise
His silence was my downfall but my finger pulled the trigger
1 shot in the head for every I should've listened
1 shot in the heart for every beat it thumped when he touched me
1 shot in the eye for being so blind to the truth
1 shot in the mouth for all the sweet nothings he whispered to me
Lies lies nothing but lies I should've known the devil never speaks the truth
But he was an angel in my eyes