sometimes I feel nothing
Sometimes I inflict pain just to feel anything at all
Sometimes I want to scream and scream until my throat is raw and bloody and somebody can finally hear me
Sometimes I feel everything . All at once every singlethoughteverysinglemomentnonstopallatonce screaming at me clawing at me tearing at my skin and I just want it to stop
I just want it to stop
But I don't want to be alone
I don't like their eyes when they look at me like that sniggering , judging , pitying. I don't want it I want them to leave me alone . But I don't want to be alone . I want to be happy
And I'm tired . I am so so tired . I need a thousand year old sleep . I want to close my eyes and sink forever
But I can't . I continue to break the same bones everyday and shed the same skin that doesn't belong to me and wear the same mask
Over and over again
YOU ARE READING
thoughts on clouds
Poetryjust a random collection of thoughts and feelings. 'learn from this , because if this hurts you its better to learn than forget'
