I feel like I can't find a middle ground .
I am too happy or I am too sad.
When I'm happy, it's great , I'm jumping off the walls, singing from the top of my lungs . Euphoria spills out of my guts like yellow beams in sunlight .
I'm standing on top of the world and nothing can stop me .
And it's contagious .
Everybody smiles around me .
I'm climbing higher and higher and spinning and flying and soaring through the sky with my dreams carrying me anywhere far away.
Then I plummet .
And I'm falling.
Falling , tumbling , crashing
Way too hard, way too fast for anybody to catch me .
I plummet straight to the ground landing face first on the concrete.
Every bone in my body shattered .
But I do not die .
I drag my broken bones around in a sack and it's a weight on my shoulder .
It weighs me down and I can't move , I can't walk , I can't b r e a t h.
I c a n ' t b r e a t h.
And I'm living a nightmare
Tendrils of darkness lash out at me even in the daylight .
And I stay like this until I soar again
Then crash
Then soar
Then crash .
And it's a never ending cycle
Of feeling too much and knowing too little.
And it's k i l l i n g me inside.
YOU ARE READING
thoughts on clouds
Puisijust a random collection of thoughts and feelings. 'learn from this , because if this hurts you its better to learn than forget'
