thoughts on clouds

Getting over him

Everyone asked me why I always stayed

why I let you hurt me over and over

and thinking back it was always the no

I wanted to hear you say it

I wanted the words to come spilling out your mouth until it was all I could here

I wanted assurance

I wanted closure

The brutal certainty that no more would come of us

No

why couldn't you just say no

Maybe then I couldve moved on

Accepted my fate

Cried until I drowned in oceans of my tears

But no

You left me hanging

Dangling in the empty space between the yes and the no

clinging on to any hope there was that we could still be together

Clinging onto your silence

Because even after destroying me again

And again

And again

You couldn't even spare me a no

and now I sit here

Lonely as ever

Bathing in the shadow of our memories

wondering if your silence means something more

Hanging on to something that isn't there

Just say no.