thoughts on clouds

Understanding him

In the end I thought itd be screaming and shouting

I braced myself for the 'I never loved yous ' and ' it meant nothings'

I prepared for the worse

What I didn't know is what'd I'd learn

he told me learn from this

because if this hurt you its better to learn than forget

I didn't know he'd give me the courage to grab my wings and jump off the edge

To fly

No , scratch that

I didn't know I could give myself the courage

Because at the end of the day,

I always relied on him

For my happiness

For my sadness

He became apart of me

What I didn't know is that I didn't need him

What I didn't know is that the only person I needed to love me was myself .

I thought he was my strength,  my courage , my reason to exist .

I am my strength.

I am everything I need to be.

I thought I'd never move on, but he toldme

 don't let this bring you down ,

So I didn't

I rose.

I rise

Up , higher than anything trying to bring me down .