They're Only ➵ Divergent Fanfiction

They're Only ➵ Chapter 37

First of all, I'm so sorry for not updating. Life has been hectic.

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[Tris]

After hours of nibbling on a delicious spinach, cheese, and bacon frittata—that Tobias so willingly prepared for his apology— we moved to the couch to relax in each other's arms. Even though it's comforting in some way, it feels like it's burning my skin off because I know I still have yet to tell Tobias about kissing Matthew. The whole situation sounds pretty bad per se, but if he got drunk and kicked me out because I just went out with him. He's gonna throw a 'told-you-so' party when he finds out that he kissed me and likes me, then he will be even more upset that I held this information from him.

I can't tell him. Because we just got back together and things are still like being on a boat—shaky. We haven't fully addressed the situation and I can't loose him again, even if its for a night.

I can't.

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"Could you be any slower?" I giggle as I jog in front of Tobias. We decided to go to Montrose beach to hang out today before Tobias has to start up work. Montrose beach isn't that packed like it usually would be, but the sun is now setting and people want to go and get some food. I decided that we should get out of the apartment and visit the beach. 

Tobias runs quicker and throws me over his shoulder making me let out a shriek of laughter and he softly puts me on top of the blanket we brought out here with us. We ate dinner already, but we brought small stuff to nibble on like some crackers, cheese, and fruit. I lay on my side and admire his features for once, he's so handsome and I hate seeing him frown and I know that wen I do tell him that Matthew kissed me and how sorry I am for holding it back from him, he will probably hate me. 

"I think we should talk about what happened the other night." He finally confesses as he runs his hand up and down my bare arm, making the hairs stand on my body and goosebumps appear in the wake of his warm hands. I nod my head and cast my eyes to the waves pulling and pushing against the sand. I'm glad that we got a nice spot that's closer to the side of the beach, giving us a secluded feel so people wouldn't see us and no one is even here since it's after hours, "I apologize or acting so immature."

I nod my head at him, "It's alright, I just hate when you get like that because it's like I can't do anything without you wanting to kill someone. It scares me." Seeing Tobias' face fall makes my heart clench but I also feel that he should feel guilty for what he does, I can't keep suffering because he doesn't trust me, "We talked about this before, Tobias. We need to have trust in each other." 

There is a silence in between us as we take in everything, "Where did you go? Who did you stay with?" 

"A friends house." 

I couldn't possibly tell him where I went just in case something happens and I need to get away from him. It's like my relaxing place and I don't want him to know because we're not perfect and if something like this happens again, I need an escape without him following me. He nods his head in understanding but I know Tobias and I can see through him, I can see that he's slightly pissed off for me not telling him and wondering where I went and if I went with with a guy, "It wasn't Matthew." I reassure him and I see his shoulders fall slowly in appreciation. 

I really want to tell Tobias about the kiss but I decide to brush it under the rug right now. I just got my Tobias back and if I tell him that Matthew kissed me he would leave me know and go kill Matthew. I don't want him in jail, we don't need that right now, "But that's enough. We just have to fight harder to not get mad at each other and drink our worries away," I climb into his lap and grab my hands in his, "I really missed you that night and knowing you were drunk scared me. You could have done anything, you really have to have more trust in me." 

Trust. Something we both lack in. 

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Short chapter, only because I've been stalling. Not edited.