They're Only ➵ Divergent Fanfiction

They're Only ➵ Chapter 43

[Tobias]

To me, life has no meaning right now. I go back to my apartment without Tris and go to bed and her presence isn't there. She makes the nights so much better and makes me feel more comfortable. It's almost as if God is making me pay for what I have done, he's given me many chances and I failed him—these are the consequences.

My promise to Tris when we first started dating was that I would never hurt her, I wouldn't hit her, and I will always be there for her and I failed that. . . I failed her. And that makes me feel like Marcus more and more each day she she isn't around, almost like a constant reminder. One of my biggest fears is turning into a duplicate of Marcus, and losing what I love the most. That's the difference between me and that bastard—he wasn't grateful for what he had nor did he love it, and I'm willing to fight for what I love.

A knock on the door jumps me from my daydreaming. I sit up from the couch with a groan, I haven't had the energy to drink and I know that it isn't going to solve my issues. I would kill to have that burning liquid travel down my throat, igniting my chest with such a flame that it makes me forget the pain in my heart. But, that will possibly result in me calling Tris and making matters worse.

I stand up and walk to the door, swinging it open, not even bothering to look first—at this point, I would care if it were a crazy person or intruder.

What takes me back is the man standing in front of me. I stand taller than him, gray stubble coats his cheeks, and his eyes bagged that shows a sign of fatigue. His eyes are a deep blue like mines but at the same time his are dull and lifeless that it sends unpleasant shivers down my spin, "Marcus?" I spit, "What do you want?" 

"Nothing, I just wanted to see how my son was doing." He comments, I raise my eyebrows at him. He has never contacted me to see "how his son was doing" I swear this is the first time in a decade that he's done this. He sighs and runs his hand through his thinning hair, "Actually, I wanted to stop by and just see how you are coping without your little play thing." 

My heart halts. First, he knows where I live, and now he knows that Tris and I are broken up, "How do you know about all of this?" I question with such an anger that I don't mind unleashing my anger on this man and beating the hell out of him, in front of these hallway cameras. 

He steps inside, but I block his way in the rest of my apartment. His gaze would send me running if I were a young boy, but now that I'm older I hold his gaze until he breaks the intense stare, "Obviously I have to keep up with my son's whereabouts, I had one of my assistants filling me in on your relationship status and it was luck that I saw you coming out of this building more than once while I were getting my morning coffee. So, I just asked the front desk for you and I'm here." He clears his throat, "Such a tragedy how she left you. You know what they say about us Eaton's, the apple doesn't fall-" 

I cut him off, my hand wrapped tightly around his throat and his back slammed against the door that is now shut. He wheezes for air as his face starts to turn a beet red, "I will never be like you. I will not beat her or degrade her because I am not a coward like you. Don't step foot in this building again or ever come face to face with me or Tris. I don't want you in my life so don't try, I have better things planned than talking to you. Do you understand?" I squeeze tighter and he nods his head before I open the door and I throw him out of my apartment, watching him stumble on his feet. The last thing I see him do is clutch his neck with shock before I slam the door in his face. I will not be scared like a little boy, I am not little Tobias anymore, I'm Four. 

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[Tris] 

"You make me want to puke." Susan announces, rubbing her belly. We're at her apartment, setting up the crib while Caleb is at work. Susan can pop any day now, but if she does everything right she can be full term, "Honestly, your sadness scares me." 

I furrow my eyebrows as I screw the leg onto the brown crib, "Sadness? Who said I was sad?" I question. I have been upset since Tobias and I part. I go to work and don't say much and hang with the girls without saying much, there isn't much to say. I don't feel the same without knowing that I am going to see Tobias at the end of the day. But, at the same time, I feel like this break is needed for Tobias to understand what he's doing is wrong. 

"Tris, its obvious you are feeling some type of way. At first you were all happy and cheery, and now you're just quiet and I know that, that isn't you and I need that right now." She sighs and leans her back on the couch, "I don't tell many people this, well, I haven't told anyone this. But, when I first found out that I was pregnant, I wanted to kill myself, literally." This makes my ears perk up at Susan as she rubs her belly, "How was I supposed to take care of a baby in this day in time, when everything is a fortune? I am still in college, and living with my parents, well, was. But, I knew so many people would hate me and belittle me because they would think that I am a reckless teen. But, I had too much to live for; your brother, my family, and this baby. The moral of my story is don't let something like this be a huge detour in your life. For right now, don't let your thoughts consume you. Okay?" 

I nod my head, smiling at her, "Okay." 

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Okay, I just wanted to reiterate what I said in my other book. I'm on break now which means that I will update more but please bear with me because there is a lot of stuff going on my life right now too. Thanks for reading!