Gone Too Far (Police Officer/Delinquent Relationship) BOOK 1 (COMPLETED)

Chapter 40

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"It's beautiful when you find someone that is in love with your mind. Someone that wants to undress your conscience and make love to your thoughts. Someone that wants to watch you slowly take down all the walls you've built up around your mind and let me inside." – unknown

Levi and I decided together that tonight would be 'hump day." Did you know Wednesday is known as Hump Day because one has made it 'over the hump' (mid-week) towards the weekend? I guess people need a little extra motivation to get to the weekend.

I don't make these things up. You know when it's on Wikipedia, it has to be legit.

I need to retrain my brain into saying its making love too because he doesn't like it when I call it sex.

Was I nervous to have sex? Obviously not, I knew what I was doing. The only thing I was nervous about was how official it would make the relationship.

I have never had a boyfriend before.

I've never slept with a boyfriend before.

Levi would be my first and potentially the last. Wishful thinking I know but I knew what he wanted. I knew he wanted me and no one else. He wanted me to be monogamous.

It's a big deal.

Although I haven't slept with anyone since, I guess Sterling, Levi and I never really talked about the terms of our relationship. He said he was my boyfriend but never once did we go over what that meant.

I didn't know what that meant!

I don't do relationships, remember?

While in the camera room, he made it clear that if we do this, there are no more emotional hookups.

I could hardly focus my attention on any of my class work after Levi left. My brain was focused on the clock that hung on top of the door frame and maybe, embarrassingly, walking through my game plan.

Would we straight shoot into ripping each other's clothes off?

Who's going to lead?

Are we closing the curtains?

Should I try to make the moan more of a whimper or a queef?

My first time jitters were real but it's not my first rodeo.

How does that happen?!

Once the final bell rang at the end of the day, I trotted to my locker. I organized my books and placed the ones I needed to take home in my bag, and everything else stayed.