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Your hand in mine

Why hello :) Christmas is HERE!!!!And so is Louis’s birthday!!!!! I love this time of the year! I just <3 it!

Now…these are just random entries in Harry’s journal(of course not Harry's real.one..:p ). There are no dates mentioned because in this fic Harry just needs  an outlet to just let it all out and hence the randomness in the entries (I hope that made some sense…) I happened to listen to ‘your hand in mine’ by Explosions in the sky and this happened (I suggest you listen to the song while reading this).A beautiful video link is also posted on the side.

Well, hope all of my lovely readers have a wonderful Christmas and also Happy New Year!!!

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Dear Lou,

Have I ever told you how beautiful your smile is? I must have, maybe a hundred times but every time I see you smile, I just…

You’re perfect Lou, in every possible way. You’re beautiful to me in ways I can’t even describe. They say love is hard, and I know it now; just how hard it is to love someone from afar. But I’m not angry Lou, not at you, not at anyone, not at myself. It’s a beautiful feeling; to be in love and to feel it when I’m in love with you makes it even more so.

But you’re happy with Eleanor and I’m happy for you Lou, even though I desperately wish every day that it was me, I ‘m happy for you. You deserve it and the last thing I want is to be in the way of that. So I’ll be here Lou, waiting in the side-lines, loving you.

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Lou,

You’re hurt Lou, I can see it in your eyes, you can lie to the other lads but why to me? I can see right through you and it kills me inside. If you just opened your eyes and saw me. I’m right here Louis, always have been. Waiting for you and I can wait forever for you.

But you love her…

Maybe for once, I want to know how it feels to be loved by you.

Just once.

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Lou,

I don’t love Alexis. Not the way I love you. I don’t think I’ll be able to love anyone like the way I love you. But it feels a little bit better when I’m with her, it doesn’t hurt that much. Even now, I still can’t be angry with you and what reason do I have? That I fell in love with you? If anything Lou I’m thankful that I did fall in love with you. The day I realized that I was in love with you, was perhaps the happiest day of my life, and it was easy for me then, to push away the thought that you’ll never love me back.

I never had the courage and probably never will have the courage to tell you. To tell you that I love you so much that it hurts. That I want to touch you, feel your hand in mine and kiss you.

You, Louis William Tomlinson are the reason for my pain and my survival and even now, I still love you…

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Lou,

It was beautiful, the wedding. Eleanor looked stunning and you Louis, I don’t even know what to say. Crazily enough I’m happy for you Lou, seeing how happy you were…I just hope you have a wonderful life ahead Lou.

Maybe not in this lifetime, but in the next I won’t let you go, I’m not letting you go once I find you. This time Louis, this time you managed to steal my heart and you didn’t even realize it.

But I did, from the very beginning, every second, every moment I knew and I let myself fall deeper in love with you, knowing that heartbreak was inevitable. But yet I couldn’t bring myself to stop, I just couldn’t…because it’s you Lou.

It’s always has been and it always will be.

Forever…

So I’ll keep saying this again and again, I love you Louis. I just hope you won’t forget me…