NateWantsToBattle Imagines

Miserable At Best

(Nate's POV)

I ran one hand through my short black hair, trying to fix it, even though I knew that it wouldn't help at all. I gazed around the crowded room, only dim lighting keeping everyone visible. Otherwise, it was pretty dark. The sound of slow music made me tear up for a quick second. Not because of it's slow and sad feel, but because I was at a dance... alone, and there was only one person that I wanted by my side.

(Katie) Don't Cry I know, you're trying your hardest but the hardest part is letting go....

I wiped the tear away, she wasn't mine. Even I knew that she deserved better. I hoped that Y/n missed me, but I know that she was probably fine. I was the one that couldn't let go. We used to hang out, but I was never able to gain enough strength to tell her that I loved her. It was all my fault.

...of the nights we shared, Ocala is calling, and you know it's haunting...

As much as I enjoyed to look back on memories of Y/n and I, I know that it would be better if I didn't. It would just end up spoiling them, haunting my broken heart and soul.

...But compared to your eyes nothing shines quite as bright...

Her eyes were one main thing that I remembered back when we were close. They were beautiful, always shining. I wish that I could've gained the courage to say that to her face.

...and when we look to the sky it's not mine but I want it so...

A guy like me could never be the person that Y/n deserved. But I still wanted to be with her.

...Let's not pretend like you're alone tonight. I know he's there and you're probably hanging out and making eyes while across the room he stares...

As I took another glance around the dance floor, I found her. My eyes locked on where she was standing.

"Y/n..."

I muttered under my breath. Y/n looked in my direction, and I quickly turned away, my face feeling hot. I could already tell that someone that was as amazing as her wasn't alone at a prom like me.

...I bet he gets the nerve to walk the floor and ask my girl to dance, and she'll say yes...

I watched as a guy walked over to her, casually leaning one hand on the table that was behind them. He said some things, I couldn't quite read his lips. But she laughed. My heart sank even more. He grabbed her hand and they walked over to the dance floor, lost in a sea of people slow dancing around them.

...Because these words were never easier for me to say, or her to second guess...

I was so stupid. I had so many chances to ask Y/n to come with me to this stupid prom, but I just couldn't. I would walk over to her and just wave or awkwardly smile. She smiled back of course, but I could tell that she didn't realize what I was trying to do.

"You failed six times Nate, Six. Why are you so awkward?!"

I yelled in my head. Instead of fighting myself any longer, I walked into the dance floor.

...But I guess that I can live without you but, without you I'll be miserable at best....

I didn't want to be without Y/n any longer. I pushed my way through crowds of people looking for Y/n. Not telling her my feelings made me feel worse and worse each day.

...You're all that I hope to find, in every single way. And everything I would give, is everything you couldn't take...

She was perfect.... we were meant to be together, I was sure of it. I finally found her, standing there alone. The guy must've left. I watched from a distance as she wiped her eye. I felt terrible, I bet he left her, he just didn't care. He didn't know how much of a special girl he had, even if it was only for a minute or so.

...'Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away...

Y/n felt so distant from me, even though we were only a few feet away from each other.

...And the hardest part of living is just taking the breaths to stay...

...'Cause I know I'm good at something I just haven't found it yet, but I need it...

I let out a long sigh. 

"You can do this Nate."

I repeated in my head over and over again. Taking one more deep breath, I walked over to where Y/n was standing. She looked up at me and smiled. I smiled back. The song playing ended, a slow dance song replacing it. People began to get into pairs. Of course, out of all times that was happening now. There was no turning back. I held out my hand, giving Y/n a reassuring smile. She smiled back and took my hand. I pulled her closer and she laughed.

...And this'll be the first time in a week, that I'll talk to you and I can't speak...

As much as I tried to talk to make the whole situation less awkward, I couldn't get any words out. I was filled with both excitement and fear.

...It's been three whole days since I've had sleep. 'Cause I dream of his lips on your cheek...

Y/n wrapped her arms around me, resting them on my shoulders. My face became hot. I placed my hands on her sides. I quickly gazed around the room, hoping that we were doing at least something right.

...And I got the point that I should leave you alone, but we both know that I'm not that strong and...

Y/n looked into my eyes and smiled. I couldn't take it anymore. I needed to tell her how I felt about her. She needed to know how much I cared, how much I wanted to be with her. I took one more deep breath and pulled her even closer. Our lips touched and I tried to keep mine there. I was surprised that she wasn't pulling away. The kiss felt so...right. As if we were destined to be together.

...I miss the lips that made me fly...

Finally, we let go of the kiss. She continued to smile at me, and I smiled back. We both let out a small laugh and the song changed once again to a more upbeat one. Y/n followed me through the dance floor. We just stood there and talked, catching up on what we had missed. We danced and laughed for a few hours, but time flew by so fast. The dance ended and people started to go home. I walked over to the exit, Y/n by my side. She scanned the parking lot and found one of her friend's car. She waved them down and then looked back at me. She pulled me closer again, catching me off guard. Our lips met once more. It was a quick but nice kiss. I wrapped my arms around her and she hugged me back, then rushing over to catch her ride. She hopped into a car and waved out the window. I waved back and they drove off. I stood there, unable to move, watching her drive off, a grin not leaving my face any time soon. I had done it, we were together. Y/n and I were meant for each other, I just knew it.

"...I could live without you but, without you I'd be miserable at best."

(Thank You Graveyard_Girl_85 For The suggestion :3)