Begin Again

June 27th pa rin...

"I'll resign Mister Martè ," hindi ko alam kung saan ko hinugot ang lakas ng loob ko ngayon . I'm still comfortably trapped here . Same position, same intensity of how we stare each other like nobody willing to back down.

"What?," he said like an almost whisper . And let his face lean close to me.

"Narinig mo ko , Philip—"

"Is it because —"

"Yes..." Ako na mismo ang nagbaba ng tingin . I can't keep up with him. He is so....

"Tinatakot mo ba 'ko, Fen? " I saw his adam apple moved. And his jaw tightens showing how he wants to take control his emotions.

"Hindi—" joke lang , pero
natigil ako nang nilapat niya ang kanyang labi sa aking labi .

He nibbled my lip wanting to entered my mouth . Mabagal ngunit nagpupumilit. I tried to push him but he just put more pressure to press me on the glass window . Ang kanyang mga braso na nakapatong sa glass wall ay ngayo'y nasa leeg at bewang ko na.

I wanted to gasp some air but then he uses that opportunity to invade my mouth fully with his playful tongue . I form my hands into a fist on his shirt and tried to push him more...near me.

From resisting , suddenly my hands travelled from his chest to his broad shoulder until they found their rightfully places on his neck . I encircled it on his neck , as I answered his kisses with the same passion . With the same heat . With the same intense . With the same emotions.

He moaned and deepened our kisses. He tilt his face to access more of my lips . Napasabunot ako sa kanyang buhok dahil sa kanyang ginawa. He lowered his other hand until it reach down on my bottom. And then I moaned from the uncontrollably feeling .

This is so wrong but it felt so right. Parehong wala akong mahanap na dahilan kaya nagpatianod na lamang ako sa mga nangyayari.

While his other arm trying to lock me on his body—thankfully because I feel rigid—my hands are busy rummaging his hair .

But before we ended up in to something , he stopped—I mean we stopped— and stare each other . We're both still panting from the heated session . None of us speaking . We're just like enjoying the moments —more like he's enjoying this. A smile was plastered on his face while still facing me . I can't help but smile too, nakaka hypnotize .

"You're mine ..."

"Ala ka? Ano ako bale?"napasimangot ako sa sinabi niya.

I just wanna remove that smile from his face so I could just walk away that easily. But then, seeing him smiling and knowing it that it's because of me.... I felt , I just have to be happy.

"I like you Fen," he reached my both hands and planted a kiss on it. Then he cupped his face using my hands.

"I know this is so sudden but .., I don't know how to explain you this..."

"Paano iyan, hinalikan mo na 'ko...pakasalan mo na ko Sir Martè.." Pabiro kong sabi . Pero imbes matawa siya ay bigla siyang maging seryoso at di kumibo.

"Oy! Joke lang iyon , Philip ! Ano ka ba?! " ito masyadong praning.

He then gave me again his gorgeous smile that can always make me conscious . I pushed him a little and breath out from having a break out from his grip.

"Where are you going?" I faced him as he tried to reach my hand and interlaced it with his. 

"Dito lang," he pulled me closer again in his arms and placed his forehead in mine. Natawa pa ko kasi para namang tatakbuhan ko siya sa mukha niya ngayon. Hindi pa naman ako tatakbo...siguro mamaya, oo.

"I like you , Fen." Should I thank my lucky star now? Ang gwapo niya lalo sa pagiging seryoso niya.

"Fen—"

"Oo narinig ko! "Tuluyan na akong natawa sa inaasta niya. Hanggang maging siya ay natawa na rin.

"Bakit ka tumatawa ?" He look serious but unlucky he can't be , natatawa na talaga kasi siya .

He then kissed me again, just a peck. Just enough to make feel me somehow na I am well taken care of whenever his on my side. I bring my left hand on his face and caress it with my thumb.

"Ang landi mo sir.."sabay tawa.

"I never felt so excited and thrilled to anybody before , Fen. Until you. And I'm planning for us to stay this way as long as we can't get enough .."

"Oops...bago maging censored iyang sasabihin mo, kakain na muna ako...so bye muna —"

"No...I want to eat too. Let's eat together . And this conversation is not so over ," sabi niya na may halong pagbabanta.

I wanted to run. I suddenly felt to throw up, nahihilo ako sa mga naiisip ko. How could I let my guard down so easily for him ? Nagpahalik kaagad ako? But then he did showed me a many—tons of clue actually —just to let me know how he feels about me.

And besides , why me? Of all the girls he've dated or knew , why me? Talaga bang naka move on na siya? There's so many questions . Pero aalamin ko ang lahat. Kailangan marinig ko mula sa kanya kung paano at kailan ito nagsimula. Don't tell me pinagnanasaan niya na ko ever since? Nah.

After we ate our lunch , I went straight ahead to my table to finalize the files that Mister Quintin asked from Mister Martè . Busy talaga for the month of June—every month of June—dahil sa annual celebration ng kompanya .
On the other hand, Mister Martè proceeded to the meeting . Pero bago pa man siya umalis, he asked me to eat dinner with him sa may Ayala Triangle and I said yes . Then maybe we can talk about the...you know.

It's 4:55 pm and I'm done working when the phone ringed.

"Century International Corp.  , how may I help you?"

"Hi..." Napatigil ako bigla sa may-ari ng boses sa telepono . Of course her angelic voice , how can I forget her?

"Hello? May I speak with Philip? This is ..." Yeah. Kilala kita , pero hindi ko na sinabi at hinayaan lamang siya mag salita.

"U–uhm , I'm so sorry ma'am but Mister Martè isn't  here . But you can leave your message to me so I can pass it to him for you...that is i–if that's okay to you...ma'am " get a hold of yourself!

"Oh, never mind...just tell him that I called . Thank you Feny," shit kilala niya 'ko? Of course nakita ka na niya dito!

"No problem ,ma'am . Will that be all?" I blinked and calmed myself. Hoping she won't feel anything from me.

"Yes , thanks again.."

I can't believe myself . Are you threaten?