The last six months saw massive changes in Lukas. Due to the immense isolation of the Farther Lands, he had been completely shut out from the modern world, and had never interacted with anyone since then. He had also started to lose all sense, in trying to break a coconut, he ended up cracking his skull rather severely. "Yow. That's totally gonna leave a mark. Hope there isn't any brain damage, just as much as I hope nobody will find me."
He has experienced multiple emotional breakdowns; he knew that Jesse had really missed him so much, and he is insistent on returning to her warm arms, but he hesitated, worried of the new world, as well as a potentially negative reaction from his reappearance. "I really… miss you dearly. And I really want to… to come back to you. But I can't, this… gut feeling, it's keeping me back, and I'm scared. Scared that my actions have driven us away from each other. But I love you, and that cannot happen!" One night, he remembered how he would wake up every morning to see her gleaming smile and her warming aura, and how her sweet-hearted personality meant that he could be happy every day, and how she was always there for him, existing both in his heart and on this world. But Lukas felt disconnected, worried, anxious of how the world around him has changed. "Nature please I beg you. Tell me my dear Jesse is OK. She's the one being I truly love and care for, and I cannot live without her. Watch over her, and keep her safe, please."
On a cold and damp morning, Lukas fell off his hammock, following a horrific nightmare. He rubbed his head and the mark of the incident. "Damn that pains me so much..." He suddenly stilled. Voices were approaching. Familiar, distinctive voices. "Uh-oh. How did… how the hell did they find me?" he thought, while jumping behind a bush. The voices continued,
He's gotta be around here somewhere.
I'm scared he's gonna reject me, after all this time to himself.
I'm fairly certain he won't. He's probably thinking about you right now, from what I know, he wouldn't last a week without you in his thoughts.
I don't know what his true motive was all this time…
Lukas noticed it was them, and tried to conceal himself behind a bigger bush. What? What made her think I'm gonna ignore her? I've missed her so much ever since I left and she worries? Good to know she cares about me… The group passed by, and Lukas was relieved, but the relief converted to shock when he noticed he had left his rucksack in the open. "Oh crap! Now they'll know I've gotta be around here."
"Hey guys? Isn't that, Lukas' bag?" Jesse said, pointing at the bag. "Yeah, it's gotta be. When I noticed you chasing him across town, trying to get him to stop, I remembered the colour of his bag." Petra added. "That means, he's gotta be around here somewhere!" added a suddenly jovial Jesse. Lukas sighed, oh to hear your beautiful voice again…
Unfortunately for him, his trembling and intense heartbeat are causing the bush to shake slightly; normally, this should be inaudible, but to his dismay, it was very gusty all of a sudden and the rustle was amplified above all other rustling bushes and waving trees. "Did you hear that?" Jesse was first to catch the distinctive sound. "What?" the others were confused. "That, rustle… it almost seems as if-" she suddenly caught sight of a lock of shaggy blonde hair and a deep blue tint, which must've been his eyes, 'Hey, there he is!' she suddenly yelled, hurtling towards thr bush. Oh crap…
Knowing it was useless to continue on this path, Lukas emerged from the bush, and Jesse was overjoyed to see him again, despite his wrecked looks. "It's been… so long since… since I have seen your face again. But we're together now, and that's all that matters-" but Lukas backed away when Jesse advanced to hug him. "No. Please, stay away from me. I mean it!"
The others were confounded by this sudden change in Lukas. "Lukas? This isn't you. The real you is calm, loving, and huge-hearted. But, you're closing yourself away, from me!" her voice saddened, and Lukas noticed this. "No no. You don't understand. Look at me. I'm a wreck, and if I'm the one to blame for shattering that little heart of yours. What will… this... do to you?" Jesse understood but kept advancing gradually, worrying his brother more, "But, but you're, Lukas! I can never blame you for your departure, and what bad can such a sweet wreck such as yourself do? You may see yourself as a crashing wreck, but you wanna know what I see?" Lukas was touched, but was still concerned, what will she say? Something nice? Something horrifying? I dunno!
Jesse thought for a moment, before answering "I see… Lukas. Not the wrecked and unwelcoming one, but the smart, funny, and ever so adorable kind. You may not see that, but I see you've still a massive heart, but it's in bits, and I can glue them back together, just like you did to mine..." She continued to advance gradually, now with an arm outstretched towards him, though rather loose and trembling than firm, "Now come here and we'll all go home, together. You don't have to suffer any more, just come here…" Lukas was worried that she was just sweet-talking him so she could berate and reject him forever, "But… but… how do I know you're not just gonna throw me away?" he coyly replied to a now very worried-looking Jesse.
"Throw you away? I would never do such a thing. There is nothing in this world which will compel me to even think about. You're Lukas, and I'm… me, and I love you. You can trust me, right?" she responded back, to a near-breaking point, which worried Lukas that she was going to really break down because he had been shunning her away because he feels compelled to veer away from her, and he cannot overcome this obligation. "I know and I love you too, but… this feeling… it keeps me back, forces me against the wall, and I cannot reach your hand. Please help me Jesse. I cannot take this crap any more! Please help me!" he said at a breaking tone. The others watched the turmoil unfold. Wow, some drama.
Jesse tried to smile as she said "I will, just come here, and we'll fight this repulsion as a team. All of us!" Lukas could take no more, he exhaled loudly, before dropping on his knees onto the arid grass, head down. Jesse had finished approaching him, she mutters his name, and a distraught look met her eyes. "I know, and appreciate, the lengths you went to make sure I'm okay. But everyday without you, it feels like I'm drifting away all the time, and now it feels like… like… like I'm 1000 light years away from your warmth. I'm sorry Jesse, but the truth is, you could've… come for me… during those past six months!" his low moan turned to a vibrant broken snap. Jesse winced back in fear as Lukas got up and started striding lividly towards her, alerting her brother and Petra. Oh crap…
It is worth noting that Lukas is broken that Jesse hasn't even tried to find him for the last six months, and now he's about to take it out on her. Since his isolation had driven him insane and quite wild, it wasn't surprising that he was hostile.
"I walked my ass out of town for six freakin' months, my heart was pulverised to dust out here. I missed you! So much! I hoped that eventually you would come to your senses and find me. But how long does it take? Six f*cking months!" Jesse stared in shock to hear that ge love of her life has become a monstrosity. "But… but I… but I was too sad-" her little voice was displaced by a thunderous roar. "Oh, and you still didn't consider coming after me, didn't you? If you missed me and wanted me back so much, then why didn't you come for me, huh?" Lukas was flared, but deep inside, he was frightened and scared. "You didn't even try! You didn't even… you didn't-" he stilled before exhaling and panting heavily. Jesse tripped to the ground, and backed away from him. What happened to him?
Lukas finished panting, before looking up to see her, but only to be deeply drowned in his sorrow to notice she had started crying. "Oh my God. What… what have I done? I've… I'm a… Jesse, I am so- nnngh!" Lukas suddenly took a blow to the face from Jesse, and he was fumed."You stay away from her, you son of a b*tch!" He kept flailing blows at Lukas and he continually tried to plead with him, "No, please! You don't understand!"
"Oh I get it alright. Just look at what you did to this poor girl here! She wanted you back, Lukas. She missed you so much; she begged every day for your return. And now look what you done!" Lukas continued to back away, but Jesseconfronted him. "Don't you turn away from me, Carter! Get back here and confront your wrongdoings for once!" But Lukas only continued to back away. "Oh, all right. I get it. C'mon sis. Clearly, this man doesn't want you any more!" He tutted at Lukas, before finally saying "Think about what you've done, you little sh*t. Think about what you've done to this little girl! Come on, this has been a waste of our time. And to think we risked our asses to get you back because she missed you! You just don't appreciate it, do you?" and returning to comforting his sobbing sister and abandoning a gutted Lukas. He's right. I'm just a wreck…
How will I ever fix this?
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Fanfiction"He's loved you before, he loves you now, and he'll love you forever!" - Jesse to Jesse (F) about Lukas. A sneak peek from Chapter V. //My first and oldest romance book on Wattpad We have people from different backgrounds shipping Jesse x Petra or L...
