Book 1: Breaking Free Making It Count (Titanic Fanfiction)

Chapter 27

*The same day*

Cals pov

For the last few days Ruth hasn't been herself. After knowing for weeks about the pregnancy I guess she had finally come to terms about what happened and that their was nothing she could do about it. She just sat there in an arm chair, alone sipping a cup of tea.

"Knock knock", I said lightly tapping on the door trying not to scare her. She then put down her tea down and struck venom into my heart knowing that I wasn't strong enough to keep a tight grip on Rose. Or for Mary for that matter. I then slowly walked over to her as she just sat and stared out to the window to the outside world where Rose was carrying her and Jacks child. "Ruth?", I said kneeling down beside her, "What is the matter with you? What's wrong? What happened?", I asked her.

"What happened is I met and saw Jack and Rose when I went into town a couple of days ago", she replied. I was absolutely shocked and angry that she didn't tell me this.

"How... how... how are they? How is she?", I asked wondering about Rose.

"She's doing fine. Her hormones are going everywhere at the moment", she replied.

"Well did you speak to them?", I asked her.

"Oh yes. Me and Jack just made eye contact. And then he then went outside to take a smoke. And I walked up to collect my order and Rose stopped and spoke to me",

"Really? What did she say? Ruth? Ruth!"

"Shes carrying twins", she replied. My heart then hit an iceberg and broke into two and sank to the bottom of the ocean.

"Tw... tw...twins?"

"Yes. And don't worry they aren't yours. I can grantee you that.", she said getting up and exiting the room and walking to the kitchen to put her cup into the sink.

"But how?!", I asked her.

"Nothing is impossible Mr Hockley", she replied

"No. But how can this be? They couldn't of survived the cold water? And the freezing temperatures of that night"

"Oh but you forgot most important thing of all. They are Jacks kids. They are survivors", she replied to my question taking a pause in each sentence to break it down easier for me.

"This is ridiculous. How... How is this even all possible?"

"How is this even all possible Cal? How it is possible. How is it that Rose snuck out and and hanged out with him majority of the voyage, and managed to get herself knocked up by him? And how is it possible that they both snuck out together and went to a steerage party together and he drawed herself naked!"

"Well you know..."

"IN FRONT OF HIM!", she yelled snapped, slamming and locking her bedroom door. I knew I should of been stronger and more there for her. And that I should of had a tighter grip on her then I did to Mary. Cause that's  how I lost both of them. I didn't bother spending time with them. I let them roam free getting to know and fall in love with hotter similar age gentleman. And before you know it, they slip right through your fingers and get hitched quickly so that you don't come running after them. And Ruth made her point. She was right. All of my marriage failures were all of my fault. I let them go to easily.

Ruths pov

That stupid man I mean boy. He thinks his money his house and all of his parties, drinks and food makes him a man. A man who hosts all of his rich noble friends and talk about their wealth and business and politics. Well we'll see about that when everyone hears the real reason why he didn't marry Rose and where she is. Then he will never be able to call himself 'a man'.

Tonight at dinner nobody said a word to each other about what happened. It was on other 'more important matters' like politics and Wall Street stock market. I can see why Rose wanted to leave so badly. Nobody even noticed or talked to us women. We were honestly just prized possessions to men. They just thought that they could us locked up for the rest of our lives and never see or talk to us. Well that's how they lose all of us.

"So Cal what are you now planning to do now that you are single again?", I asked him as he was chewing on his mouthful.

"Well I thought I could work more. Get more money. Then get married and have a big fancy wedding. Bigger than Roses or Mary's and what they could ever possibly dream about", he said finishing off his sentence as he wiped his face off with a napkin. "Now if you would excuse me", he said getting up out of his seat, "I have matters to attend to", he said walking off with him, with Lovejoy closely behind.

Cals Pov

I immediately walked up to my room skipping desert and leaving Ruth alone. I couldn't believe what she said was true. And now I felt insecure about myself because of it. What if I never find love and get married? What if I never have a son or any children to be in fact. Where will all my money go? I can't imagine what all my family are saying about me up in heaven right now. I have let my whole family down. And it was all because of a fun, penniless, hot, cute boy named Jack Dawson.

He was the reason why I am in this spot contemplating my whole life. After the 'accident' of Rose slipping off of the Titanic. They have just been inseparable. I mean how can Rose stand Jack at all when she can't stand me. He has no money and lives on the street and moves around a lot by walking on foot to get to places and boats. And then their is me. I have loads and loads of money. I can easily afford things. I can pay for a fancy holiday and give a feast every night and day. For breakfast, lunch and dinner. I mean come on who doesn't like food? Jack gets none and I get heaps. And yet she still chose him over me!!! How the fuck does all of this add up from her choosing Jack over me. It is INSANE of what she was thinking. It is logic that she would of chosen me over Jack and yet SHE DIDN'T!!! SHE HATES ME!!! This  just drilled my head in more and more. I then immediately fall back on my comfy most softest bed.

"Lovejoy, can you get me a jug of water, a bottle of  the best wine and a glass?", I order him to get for me. He then left the room to fetch what I had ordered as I then closed my eyes to try and get some rest after a day of battling with Ruth and myself. It was just going to me, myself and I tonight.

*Lovejoy comes back*

I just lay there on the bed just ignoring him. He then placed the bottle of wine, two glasses and a water jug on the table and walked out lightly shutting the door behind him. I then got up and pored myself a glass of water and took it like a shot. I then popped opened a bottle red wine imported from France. I then took a sip and placed it back down again. I then walked over to the wall  on the right side of the room and knelt on the floor. I then grabbed a small golden key from my pocket and found the hole to the secrete safe hidden in disguise matching the plaster of the decorated walls. I then opened it to see all my news papers about Mary and Rose that I had collected over the years and the last few months.

They were in a bundle tied all together with sting. I then untied it and put the pile next to me. I then grabbed the latest one on top. It was the picture of all four of them together on the front page, from Jacks 'big reveal' of his art work.

*a few hours later*

I got through the whole pile. With all the papers scattered everywhere across the floor with only a drop on wine left in the bottle. I then took a sip of my surviving wine in my glass. I then looked down and saw my whole love life laid out in front of me scattered in the papers. My life is a disaster. Everyone knows me. I am rich. I am well known throughout business . And I am also known for being terrible and weak towards women. But look at them both now. Married, happy, rich. Married who they choose to love and who loved them. And while they are all happy and living the high life. I am stuck here in all my misery knowing that I fucked up my life. And so did they. But that all needs to change. And I need to start now.