Bound To You

CHAPTER 43

"Sino ka?" I felt like im in a marathon. My heart was beating wild at her question with a sterned look in her face.

I stopped waving my hands and nervously step foward.

"Sino ka?" tanong niya ulit.

I should not speak at least not right now, kaya kinuha ko yung maliit na white board and marker saka nagsulat dito. 'Hi!'

She folded her arms across her chest then glared at me "Sino ka? Sasagot ka ba o tatanggalin ko yang ulo mo?!" galit na sigaw niya.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I don't know why im freaking nervous. My inner body was shaking tremendously that never happened in my entire life and also, im a bit scared of her reaction kapag natanggal ko na tong mascot na suot ko. I shook my head then wrote again. 'I brought you food every lunch break, don't be so mean to me'.

Her forehead creased as she stared at the white board.

"Tigilan mo ko Raven" she said then turned her back on me.

Hindi na 'ko nagtaka kung si Raven talaga ang suspect niya. And as for my flexes, my arms quickly moved around her waist to stop her from walking away.

I've been dreaming of this. Hugging her from behind. This felt so good that it made me wish to stop the time and let me stay this way. But it will never happen.

I felt her body stiffened as her steps abruptly halted but then I have to commend her reaction for removing my arms right away and faced me angrily. I stepped backward and carefully wrote on my white board. 'Do you want me to remove this?' Im talking about the costume im wearing.

She didn't answer and just glared at me so I wrote again.

'But promise me first that you won't punch me'

I know what she'll say. But then she just shook her head and turned her back on me again. Kaya naman wala na akong choice kung hindi umamin na lang. Gusto ko pa sanang patagalin but fate was really rude to me.

I sighed.

"Pam.." I called her.

Tumigil siya sa paglalakad at mukhang gulat na gulat na tumingin sakin.

"Kikay.." I removed the head of the mascot and walked towards her. "Aamin na ko" I said nervously with shaking hands.

"Im sorry for not telling you" I bit my lower lip and thought of the good words but my tongue has a mind of its own and my lips betrayed me when I thought of my first kiss which happen to be hwr first kiss too "But I won't say sorry for stealing your first kiss" I grinned.

Her fist met my jaw. "Gago ka ba?! Ang tagal kitang hinanap! Tangina. Ikaw lang pala! Ugh! At hindi ka talaga magsosorry na hinalikan mo ko?!" She shouted angrily.

I groaned. Napahawak ako sa panga ko because it damn hurts. She sure knows how to punch hard. Tss. But then, it's worth it.

"I won't" I smirked.

Naalog yata ang utak ko sa suntok niya. Thinking that im her first kiss is really worth every hard punches from her.

"Ano? Gusto mo pa ng isang sapak?!"
"Hindi. Masakit kaya." I chuckled "But it's okay if that what makes you feel calm. Im fine with it because I won't say sorry for making myself as your first kiss. Buti na lang ginawa ko yun, naunahan ko yung suitor mo" pagmamalaki ko.

That's something to brag about, right? I smiled triumphantly. And Pam should be proud too. She's also my first. Should I let her know?

She glared at me. "Pinagsasabi mo?"

"He stole kisses on you too, don't try to deny it. I saw it, I was there." I said bitterly. Sating those thing made my mood changed in an instant . "Tell me, mas gusto mo bang siya ang first kiss mo kesa sakin?"

"Ano?! Nahihibang ka na ba?! Wala akong gustong maging first kiss! Tangina! Bakit ba kasi sa dami ng babaeng pwedeng halikan? Bakit ako pa ang pinagtitripan niyo?! Tangina talaga!"

"I'll tell you someday" I said with finalty then removed the panda costume. "Maupo ka Kikay, kumain muna tayo.. Nagluto ako".

I planned everything well. I made sure that I cooked all her favorites para kahit papaano, mabawasan yung galit niya. As much as I don't want to be the cause of her anger, wala naman na akong magawa dahil nangyari na. And I knew too well that thesw foods are her guilty pleasure.

"Suhol na naman" She murmured while looking at the table.

"Alam kong magagalit ka at alam kong ito ang katapat ng galit mo" I grinned.

She didn't speak. Tahimik na siyang kumain nang hindi man lang tumitingin kahit sandali sakin. I watched her every move. I looked intently at her and memorized how her eyes flutters, how her mouth move while chewing and how her lips curved a bit up when she tasted the dishes on the first bite. I freaking sure gonna miss this close promixity.

"Tangina!"

I jerked when she suddenly cursed and slaps the table.

"Pam! Oh, God! You'd just gave me a mini heart attack! Bakit ka ba bigla na lang nagmumura dyan?" tanong ko.

She glared at me and pointed the fork she's holding to me "Ikaw! Ugh! Hindi ko matanggap! Hindi talaga!" she stopped then looked at my lips that made me parted it a bit. "Tangina! Ugh! Yuck! Iisipin ko pa lang na hinalikan mo ko..Ugh! Kingina talaga!" she closed her eyes and massaged her temple.

I stared at her. I don't know what to do. She looked stress all of a sudden and it made me too damn worried.

"Kikay.."

"Wag mo kong kausapin. Hindi kita mapapatawad!" she hissed.

I know.

My lips pursed into thin line. Biglang nagflashback sakin yung mga nawitness ko.

"Tss. You won't forgive me pero dun sa manliligaw mo okay lang" I whispered and shook my head.

I wanted to say it aloud and ask her why she's unfair. But I know where I stand and I don't have any right to question her decisions. He's special to her and im not. I get it.

"Fine then" I said, giving up. "Sa labas lang ako. Ubusin mo yan" I stood up and walked to the door.

I released a heavy sigh when I descended the stairs. I sat on the second step and looked in no particular area. Parang nakalutang ang isip ko, hindi ko rin maintindihan ang nararamdaman ko. But one thing is for sure. Something inside me hurts.

I groaned as I cover my palms on my face. I ruffled my hair in frustration and heaved a sigh again. Why does love have to have disadvantage? Why do we have to hurt ourselves while in the process of loving someone? Why do we have to let go when all we ever wanted is them to stay forever? And why does people can't love the one who loves them more than anyone could? I have so many questions in mind yet I couldn't fathom to answer nor seek for an anwer. Because the only thing I want, is for her to be happy even if it means breaking my heart into pieces.