Bound To You

CHAPTER 39

I went back home and sleep then just when I woke up, Troy was already discharged in the hospital.

"Im okay na Kuya" he said when I asked how he was feeling.

I smiled at him then ruffled his hair.

"Nasaan na si Ate Pam?"

I cursed mentally when I remembered I haven't apologize to her.

"Nakausap mo na ba siya?" tanong ni Mom who was busy preparing Dad's coffee.

Umiling ako saka mabilis na tinapos ang breakfast. Nagpaalam ako sa kanila na aalis na ako para makausap si Pamela. They understood it and said goodluck, I don't know why they'd said it. Magsosorry lang naman ako, hindi magcoconfess ng feelings. Tss.

I drove to their house early but but my dismay, Father said Pam got out without even finishing her breakfast.

"Bakit daw po?" I asked curiously.

Father shook his head then sighed. "Nalaman niyang kasama ko si Stella sa Singapore. Nagtampo"

I tilted my head not knowing what to respond. So, I just gave him a tight smile.

"Maaga siyang umalis and im a bit worried. Can you find her for me Trystan?" sabi ni Papa.

I nodded immediately. Of course i'll do that, kahit hindi niya sabihin. Hindi kasi ako napapakali kapag hindi ko alam kung nasaan si Pamela.

Nagpaalam na agad ako para hanapin kung nasaan siya and I have an idea where she is right now.

I stopped the car in front of the huge gate, nagbusina ako para makuha ko ang atensyon nung guard.

"Sir? Ano pong kailangan niyo?" tanong nung guard.

"Susunduin ko lang po si Pamela"

The guard stared at me then nodded. I felt relieved when he opened the gate without asking anything again and let me pass. I don't know if he recognized me or he just let me in because I said im going to pick up Pam. But whatever it is, im thankful for it.

I stopped the car and stared to where Pam was standing. My heart constricted in the scene right in front of my eyes. My gripped on the steering wheel tightened as my brows furrowed in confusion.

I started the engine again and drove fast, away from that place. I went back to their house to tell to her father that she's fine and in safe place and then left.

I didn't know where to go, kaya nagdrive na lang ako until I ran out of gas but it was a useless reason because I have money to refill it again. Tss.

Hours have passed and I ate my lunch and dinner inside my car. I found myself driving back to Pamela's subdivision. Ilang araw lang naman akong nagstay sa kanila pero mukhang nasanay na yata ako. I shook my head then continued anyway. I stopped the car in front of their house and looked at her window.
Did the kiss was the sign to tell me that it's time to step back futher away from her?

I sighed then ruffled my hair.

Yeah. Seeing the one you love kissing someone else hurts.

I started the engine and decided to go back to my condo. Pero napakunot ang noo ko nung mapadaan ako sa park. It was dark and kinda creepy when I saw someone on the swing. I wanted to ignore it but my eyes caught a familiar red car parked nearby so I stepped on the break and looked back at the swing.

Her long hair was swaying against the wind. If not for the light from the post, I would think she's a ghost because of the sullen ambience from there. I should have just ignored her and continue driving away but my decision's changed when I saw her hands were covering her face. Is she crying again? Tss.

Maybe it's my conscience that made me stopped the engine and climbed out of the car. I don't know. Nilapitan ko siya at naglabas ako ng panyo para iabot sa kanya, not sure if she's really crying or what.

"You're supposed to be home at this very moment" I said.

She stopped from sobbing and looked up at me with a shocked expression in her puffy eyes. Mabilis niyang kinuha sa kamay ko yung panyo saka pinunas sa pisngi niya. She did it very quietly though.

I stared at her and waited for her to say anything but she remained silent while continue wiping her nonstop tears.

I gave her a curious stares "Why are you crying?" hindi ko na napigilang itanong.

She didn't answer and just stared back at me instead. I saw the real sadness in her eyes which surprised me. Ngayon ko lang kasi natitigan ang mga mata niya. Her innocent face makes her look fragile that needs to be taken care of. Then, her eyes were filled again with a new batch of tears as her brows hardly smashed together.

I felt a stinging pain watching her like this. Im not used to seeing someone crying in front of me. It's one of my weakness. I looked away and heaved a sigh. Nagulat na lang ako ng bigla siyang yumakap sakin. She cried on my chest as she hugged me very tight as if she's holding on for her life not to be taken away. Napapikit na lang ako at napailing saka ko siya niyakap pabalik. I was surprised at the sudden comfort it gives me, so I closed my eyes as my hugged tightened.

Maybe, I needed that hug more than she does. The pain I was refusing to feel suddenly burst and it damn hurts. I never thought loving someone could be this painful, however, people still choose it over anything else. Being hurt is part of loving but  making the pain to stay is a matter of choice.

I looked down and caressed Ashley's hair. Now I understand what she feels whenever she's been ignored not by me but by her father. Tss.

I heaved a sigh and pulled back. I wiped the tears from her cheeks then gave her a tight smile. "If im one of those who makes cry.. Im sorry. From now on, I will be good to you"