Bound To You

CHAPTER 48

My heart ached by then. Just those simple gesture means something.

Tss.

I've decided to just wait for her inside their house. Seconds after, she finally went inside and walked straight on the stairway.

"Kikay.." I called.

Her steps halted as she looked over her shoulder. I closed my palms when our eyes met. I have so many things to say in mind but I was too damn afraid to say it out loud.

I heaved a sigh. "Can we talk?"

Tinitigan niya muna ako bago siya nagsalita "Anong pag-uusapan natin?"

I didn't waste a second and walked towards her and grabbed her hand immediately. I dragged her upstairs and went to her room then locked it. My heart was racing. I knew from the start that my heart will betray me for not following my decisions.

'I love her.' that's what the insides of my mind always shouted. But it damn hurts whenever I see her with him. That everytime I was too fvcking lucky to watch them together, I can do nothing but to wish that I was him. Tss.

"Anong kailangan nating pag-usapan?" she cutted my thoughts.

My brows remained knitted together "Are you.. already falling for Ian?" I asked bravely.

She didn't answer. She stared at me like I was speaking in alien language and did not understand anything I'd said.

I sighed "Do you like his company?" I asked. I was hoping to fish out something. Something to confirm whether my conclusions were true or not.

"Anong klaseng mga tanong yan?"

I expected this. She's pissed off already. Palagi naman. Tss. When it comes to me, she's always irked.

I shook my head.

Alam kong hindi madaling makuha ang sagot na gusto ko kung si Pam ang tatanungin. She can be straight forward most of the times, but she's too uptight and private and denial when it comes to her feelings, based from my observation.

"Just answer me, Pamela"

She shook her head "Kalokohan"

I bit my lower lip. There's a bitter feeling inside me. Just her annoyed face was enough confirmation about her feelings. Or it's just my paranoia. I don't know anymore.

"What if, I'd tell him na layuan ka? What would you feel?" I continued.

I prepared myself with her outburst but I was hopeful that she'll just ignore me. Maybe people would think I was stabbing my own heart by asking such questions. But sometimes or even just once in our freaking life, we have to be brave and dig our own grave just to stop us from thinking about the what ifs. Now my question's finally answered. I will not die wondering anymore.

"Subukan mo lang, hindi mo na makikita pa ang bukas" she said angrily.

One corner of my lips quirked upward. "I knew it" I mumbled then looked away.

My heart constricted and I just diverted my gaze to anything that meet my eyes except for hers.

I saw Pamu lying on her bed so I walked into it and held it in my one arm.

"May family dinner kayo, magbihis ka na, I'll drive you there" I said then stepped out of her room.

I entered the room next to her and placed Pamu beside Pandi. I smiled bitterly at them.

"Atleast, the two of you are together now"

I shook my head then closed the door and locked it. Pam didn't let me wait for long. I stood up and walked to the door when I saw her descending the stairs. I shook my head again when I remember what her father and her soon-to-be stepmother was wearing.

"Let's go" I said when I felt her behind me.

We drove in silence. For the first time, I felt awkward towards her. I became speechless and wasn't able to utter any word to tease her. Though, what she's said
earlier felt like a rejection to me, I still want to stay behind her. I will be contented to be in that place. As long as im still with her.

"Baba na, they're waiting for you" I said without looking.

"Hindi ka sasama?"

Napatingin akong bigla sa kanya. A ghost of smile suddenly registered on my lips.

"Im not part of your family" I said that almost choke me.

I wished I am part of your family though.

I stayed inside my car even until she already entered inside the hotel. I was hesitant to leave for father might get upset with me for not joining them.

I sighed and ruffled my hair. I'll just message him.

I started the engine and was about to leave when a familiar car parked beside mine. Hindi ko muna pinaandar ang kotse ko at tiningnan ko muna yung bababa sa kabilang kotse. My brows furrowed when  Ian stepped out.

I was curious but I decided to stay inside my car. It's not my business to meddle with them. Heck, I don't even care about him. Tss.

Lumabas lang ako ng kotse nang makapasok na siya sa loob ng hotel. What a coincidence, right? O di kaya, invited din siya sa family dinner nila Pamela? Tss.

I ruffled my hair.

If that's the case, might as well join them to see what he's up to.

I released a sigh then followed him inside the hotel. I was almost at the entrance of the restaurant when I saw him again standing near to where Pam, her father and his fiancée were sitting.

Kumunot ang noo ko while contemplating whether to continue to walk to their table or wait for a cue or something.

"Mom" I heard Ian said while holding his phone.

It takes no genius to figure out what's happening when I suddenly looked at Pam's direction.

"Hindi ako makakarating" he said  while looking inside the restaurant.

I don't want to meddle with them but when Pam is involved, I somewhat felt the need to be involve too.

I leaned on my car and sighed. Why everything became so complicated?

Tss.

I sighed again then ruffled my hair. Napaayos ako ng tayo nang makita ko si Pamela palabas ng hotel.

"Aalis ka na?" I asked worriedly.

I sudden sting hitted me when our eyes met for a brief seconds. She's look more hurt than angry.

She ignored me. Mabilis ko siyang hinabol at hinawakan sa braso then offered her a ride home but she shook  her head and grabbed a taxi instead which alarmed me kaya mabilis akong sumakay sa driver's seat at sinundan ang taxi na sinakyan niya.

I almost felt relieved when the taxi finally entered their subdivision but my heart constricted again when  I drove on a familiar route. Lagpas sa bahay nila.