Bound To You

CHAPTER 40

I wasn't that bad afterall. I don't hold grudges against anyone for too long.

And when I thought saying those words makes her stop from crying, well, I was all freaking wrong. Parang mas lalo lang siyang umiyak.
"Hey.." I said then looked down on her.

She didn't stir, instead, she keeps on sobbing na parang hirap na siyang huminga.

"You should go home. Baka hinahanap ka na ng parents mo" I said.

She shook her head and looked down. Then she sighed and handed me back my handkerchief. "Thanks"

I hesitantly accepted it and I was surprised when she immediately turned her back on me then ran away.

I tilted my head as I watched her car leaving. Naupo ako sa swing at napakunot ang noo ko ng may mapansin akong papel sa damuhan. Since, the light post was directed on me, I can vividly read the bold letters on the paper. Kinuha ko agad ito para mas mabasa ng mabuti. I felt mixed emotion after reading it all. I was speechless for a second. Life is indeed full of mistery. So people.. Us.. Doesn't have any right to judge anyone.

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I stood up and walk to my car then started the engine. I feel exhausted. Ang daming nangyari ngayon araw. Tapos, hindi ko pa nagawa yung pakay ko. I groaned and slumped on my bed. Buti na lang tulog na si Raven, I might straggle him kapag dumagdag pa siya sa sakit ng ulo ko. Tss.

Mabilis akong nakatulog pagkahiga ko. I wasn't even able to change my clothes kaya mabilis akong bumangon pagkagising ko at naligo. I planned of talking to Pam and apologize to her for my behavior the other day. I want to explain my side and I want her to know that im not blaming her though a little part of me did. Tss. And it's my freaking fault kaya sobra siyang nakokonsensya. And.. I missed her already too.

"Ang aga natin a?" sabi ni Raven na naupo agad sa high chair pagkatimpla ng kape. "I thought you stopped?" he frowned when he watched me preparing lunch for Pamela.

I just shrugged and continued designing the rice to look like a panda.

"Until when you would keep that little secter of yours?"

I closed the tupperware and sighed. "Soon" I answered.

It's actually bothering me everytime I think about hiding it to her. I just wanted to treasure it and yes, im just being selfish again. Tss. Ang dami ko ng kasalanan na dapat ihingi ng sorry sa kanya. Tss.

"So, may balak ka talagang umamin? How about your feelings?" nakangising tanong ni Raven.

I shook my head as an answer. Raven frowned then sighed.

"Mas torpe ka talaga sakin"

I didn't respond on that statement.

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"Ayan na sila"

"Tss" My lips pursed into thin line when I saw Ian trailing behind Pam and Yanna.

I want to forget what I saw yesterday but it keeps on hunting me, dumagdag pa na nakikita ko sila ngayong magkasama. Tss. It doesn't feel right.

I looked down and avoided their gazes. I pretended to be so engrossed with my food like I didn't noticed them, but my full attention was not actually in the food but in them.

What the heck am I doing? Tss.

"Eatwell" sabi ni Raven pagkatulak kay Pam ng ginawa kong lunch para sa kanya.

"Sakin lang ba to?" she asked after Ynna and Ian left to order their foods.

"Oo" answered Raven then he elbowed me. Tss.