My Brother's Bestfriend-Louis Tomlinson Fanfic

Chapter 65

No. No I'm not giving up on him! I know before I might have thought that but not anymore. I know I wanted him to give up on me. I wanted him to move on his life, I wanted him to find someone better, someone who doesn't have a messed up past and present, but I was just lying to myself. I want him to be with me and only me. It may be fucking selfish but that's what I want.

Now I was at a war with myself. If I really love Louis I should let him go, but if I went with what I wanted, then I would take him back. I just don't want to hurt him anymore then he is. That's all I have done these couple of weeks. This whole situation was confusing. And I was still mad at him on top of it.

Why can't he just understand that I'm doing this for his own good? What if he's trying to the same thing for you? Why can't he just give up? But you don't want him to give up... I had to pick a side and I didn't know which...

Before I could stop myself, I was already trying to run to the door. I ignored the pain in my body and stopped thinking completely. I just didn't want him to leave. And I wanted to know how he feels. I need to know for sure. Maybe he can help me figure this all out.

I ran to the front door, well limped to the front door. He wasn't here, he must have left. I opened it but someone grabbed my hand.

"Jess don't," Todd said sternly.

"No! Todd just let me talk to him. I shouldn't have pushed him away!" I cried. We fought for the doorknob but of course he won.

"Jess let him go it's only been a day! You can live without him for a day!" he fought back.

"No I can't, not like this!" I sobbed.

"Jess he's been drinking." Its like I had this string of thoughts I was going to say but then someone came by and cut the string, leaving me brain dead.

"No he stopped, he was fine," I denied.

"When I was going to drive him back, he walked to the bar instead." He looked down as he spoke. But Louis stopped drinking for me...he changed right...? What if he was the same person he always been but he's been hiding it....? Why does he keep doing this to me? I took a deep breath trying to calm myself down.

"If he comes back....don't let him in. Ever. Again."

I guess I made my decision.

...

I woke up and I was looking at the sky. It was dark and cloudy, the sun hidden. Snow fell on my face sticking to my eyelashes. I could see my own breath in the air.

I sat up my hands sinking in the snow. Why was I laying in the snow?

All of a sudden I was pushed back down in the snow, and I couldn't move. Tyler's face came in front of mine, him towering over me. I tried to yell help but I couldn't speak. That evil smile took over his face and I wanted to close my eyes but I couldn't. All I could do was stare at him.

But then there was another face that came in the picture. It was Louis. He was standing there, watching. I yelled his name but he still stood there, staring me in the eyes. Why won't he help me? Why is he not saving me and protecting me?

Tyler leaned over, his hands going to my neck. I could feel the air leaving my body.

No matter how hard I tried I couldn't fight back and I couldn't close my eyes. All I could do was stare at the person I hate and the person I love.