The Struggles of my own Incompetence (Big Bang TOP)

The letter

TOP'S POV

I woke smiling at the thought of Alex having stayed the night. In all honesty I loved her. She was everything to me. Perfect, her smile her face, she was one hot chick, I thought to myself as I smirked.

Rolling over in bed I noticed it to be empty.

"Alex?" I called out expecting her to be somewhere in the house . I didn't receive a response which was fine because she was probably in the kitchen or bathroom. Giving her a good ten minutes I checked the bathroom.

Empty.

Kitchen?

Empty.

"Alex, where are you?" I said getting slightly frustrated now. She couldn't have left. Surely not.

Stalking around the house I called her name. A sick feeling began to grow in my stomach.

I caught a glimpse of a thick white envelope, that had been neatly placed on the bench in the kitchen.

It had my name on it. So you can guess what I did next...

Dear Top

Firstly, I want to say thank you for playing such a huge role in creating ikon's fame.

You're popularity did wonderful things to boost my own.

Truth is I didn't really learn anything from you at all.

All my time spent with you was purely for my own gain.

I can't believe you thought that we were going to be together after all this mess.

What's even funnier is that you bought me a promise ring, which by the way I plan to sell

As soon as I get to Australia.

You really are an idiot, I can't believe you thought I loved you.

This is just a note to say I was using you the whole time.

If you try to look for me ill be sure to show the public a side of the nude you.

If you don't believe me shake the envelope.

As the two photos slipped to the ground I felt my whole world have been torn apart.

I couldn't get through the rest dropping the letter to the ground.

There was no way that Alex had written this.

Sure enough, I was naked and in all my glory had been overshadowed by the beauty of the one women I had fallen in love with.

I yelled in frustration , making a move to punch a hole a wall.

How could she do this ?

This is a lie surely.

She wouldn't----

No she wouldn't.

Noticing the blood on my hands I picked up the letter. I actually had punched a whole through the wall.

At this stage I was heavily crying. Looking back at the letter I noticed some small writing at the base of the page.

Grabbing my phone and a translator app I struggled to find meaning in her English phrases.

I'm so drunk writing this I can believe I'm actually doing it.

I have to do this for your career..

You don't need me in your life, is what I really want to say but I can't keep holding you back.

I know I'm a huge risk which is why I need to leave.

Truth is I'm okay being a cat lady the rest of my life, as I plan to never take my promise ring off.

I love you so much it hurts, which is why I'm truly sorry for hurting you.

Relief washed over me as translated the last phrase.

She's such an idiot, but she's my idiot.

" Wait for me Alex, I'm coming for you! "

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