We Broke Up

{ ENTRY 45 • Back to Zero }

Nakarating ako sa ospital na di ko alam kung bakit ako nandito. The nurses are asking me what happened or who the patient is, whatsoever but I didn't bother to answer them. Nakatingin lang ako sa kanila at tahimik na nagmamasid.

Sumasakit pa din ang ulo ko at nahihilo sa mga nangyayari sa paligid. It's seems so strange. I didn't even know why am I inside an ambulance with that unknown man covered with blood.

"Good afternoon po, Mrs Sue-Chien. I'm so sorry to know what happened." may lumapit sa akin na sa tingin ko ay mga doktor.

At anong tawag niya sa akin? Mrs Sue-Chien? Do they know me? Why is he calling me that name?

"K-kilala mo ako?" I pointed at myself.

The doctor looked at me suspiciously. "Yes, Mrs Sue-Chien, your husband's family hasn't arrived yet pero nanggaling na dito ang mga pulis at papunta na sila dito. By the way," nilahad ni doc ang kamay niya. "I'm Dr Lowell Hernandez, Maple Hospital Director. We'll make sure po na gagawin namin ang lahat para mailigtas ang Young Master. If there's something you need to address, don't hesitate to let me know. Ako mismo ang mag-aasikaso."

Napatango na lang ako sa sinabi niya. Maple? The name rings a bell. Bakit masyadong hands on ang mismong direktor ng ospital dun sa pasyenteng sinasabi niya? At sino ba yun?

Don't tell me that the man who was covered with blood is my husband?!

So that means I am married...

Shit, ang sakit na naman ng ulo ko! I shouldn't be thinking too much kasi nagti-trigger yun lalo ng dissociative amnesia ko. I'm forgetting the things I did earlier, or where was I, or even the person I'm with. Nasi-stress ako lalo.

Nasa loob ng Emergency Room yung lalakeng sinasabi ng doktor na asawa ko daw. Paatras akong umupo sa labas at sumalampak. I massaged my temples so I could think straight and keep myself calm.

Anneliese, kailangan mong mag-isip ng mabuti. Tandaan mo kung anong mga nangyari bago ka napunta sa ospital at kung bakit duguan yung lalakeng kasama mo.

Pumikit na lang ako ng mariin at pilit na inalala kung nasaan ako kanina habang kasama ko siya.

Nagbilang ako sa isip ko para mag-relax. Unti-unting parang may mga montage of events ang pumapasok sa memorya ko. Na nasa isang kotse ako kasama nung lalake—his face is blurred kaya di ko talaga maalala kung anong itsura niya.

The next thing I remember is that we were almost hit by a motorcycle, then the next scene is that there was a fire—I don't know why it was present there but I'm sure there is. And lastly, we were crossing a street and then I heard a huge sound from somewhere...

Umaasa ako na sana hindi lang iyon mga parte ng imagination ko pero sana totoo siyang naganap at nangyari ang mga yun bago kami napunta dito.

I silently cried and prayed.

Lord, Kayo na po ang bahala sa amin. Make sure my husband is safe...

( ' ∀ ')ノ～ ♡

I woke up to a place where there is all-white. For sure, hindi pa naman ako patay pero alam kong naka-admit ako sa isang kwarto dito sa ospital. Bumangon ako at pinukpok ang ulo ko. I know my memory is playing games with me again and there's something really wrong happening.