learning to trust. (scomiche au) // COMPLETED

eighteen.

Trigger Warnings: mentions of suicide (will have this every time it's mentioned in a chapter)

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Mitch couldn't wait longer than three days before he finally went to Scott's house. He couldn't stop thinking about him after learning that he was planning on killing himself.

It was Monday and luckily Nel is letting Mitch stay home from school and he knows that Scott didn't go to school today because Kirstie texted him that he wasn't there.

Mitch takes a deep breath before knocking on the door. He waits a few moments before the door opens.

Mitch looks up and smiles when he sees Claire.

"Mitch?" Claire asks, surprised to see him. "I wasn't expecting to see you here. You haven't been around for awhile and Scott doesn't talk about you as much as he used to."

Mitch tries not to freak out about the fact that Scott has actually talked about him to Claire. But he remembers that he's not here about his crush. He's here to restore his friendship with Scott.

I'm sorry. Something happened between me and Scott but I'm here to talk to him and make things better.

"Oh, wonderful. Scott could use some positivity in his life right now. He's been feeling down for awhile and I just want him to smile again. Please, come in," Claire says as she opens the door and lets Mitch inside.

Mitch smiles as he steps inside the house and looks around for a moment. He hasn't been around here in a long time and honestly he missed it. This house always feels so warm and welcome.

"Scott is in his room. You can go ahead and see him," Claire says before taking Mitch to Scott's bedroom.

Mitch nods and watches as Claire walks away. He hesitates before knocking on the door. He waits a moment before pushing the door open and walking into Scott's bedroom. He's secretly praying that Scott won't yell at him and kick him out. He won't be able to take ano rejection from his crush.

Mitch looks up and bites his lip slightly when he sees Scott lying on his bed, not really doing anything.

Scott finally looks up and blinks a few times when he sees Mitch standing there. "Mitch?" He asks tiredly.

Mitch quickly pulls out his notebook from his bag so he can communicate with Scott.

I'm sorry for disturbing you. I just wanted to talk. Can I come in?

Scott looks up at Mitch. "Well, you're already in so... I guess," he mumbles.

Ah yes, Mitch forgot how sassy Scott could be, even when he doesn't mean to be.

I don't want to be a bother. If you don't want to talk it's fine. I'll just leave.

"Mitch, just get up here. I'm too tired to argue," Scott tells him.

Mitch's eyes light up and he instantly crawls onto the bed, making sure to keep a safe distance between him and Scott. Now that Scott knows how Mitch really feels about him... Mitch doesn't want to scare him.

Scott slowly pushes himself up and prompts himself up against the pillows so he's more comfortable.

"Okay. What did you want to talk about?" Scott asks, even though he knows what Mitch will say.

Mitch bites his lip and then he starts writing in his notebook.

I don't care about my stupid feelings towards you. I'll forget about them if that's what you want. I just miss hanging out with you. I miss having someone to relate to. I love Kirstie but she doesn't get it. She doesn't understand how hard it is to have a disability. Can we forget about what happened and be friends again?

Scott stares at the note that Mitch wrote before looking up at him. "I don't... want to forget," he mumbles.

Mitch blinks a few times and tilts his head slightly.

What do you mean?

"You have to understand how hard it is for me to... trust people. After the accident... I put up this wall and swore that I would never trust another person again. Because of someone else, I lost my family. I still have my aunt but it's not the same. I'm sorry for rambling but it's just... you're the first friend that I've had,"

Mitch doesn't say anything. He's paying attention to every single word that Scott is saying.

"We started hanging out after the project and I tried so hard to ignore you but that's hard to do when you're literally a ray of sunshine. Like, you're so fucking cute and I hate you for that," Scott says.

Mitch blushes as he looks down at his hands.

Scott just called him cute? This can't be happening.

"What I'm trying to say is... I-I think... I think I l-like you too," Scott whispers.

Mitch looks up at Scott with wide eyes, surprised to hear him say what he just said.

Scott, you don't have to say that. It's okay if you don't feel the same way.

Scott shakes his head. "I'm not just saying that, Mitch. I mean it. That;s why I pushed you away. But... you have a boyfriend so it's not like I have any chance with you anyways,"

Mitch rolls his eyes at the mention of his stupid ex-boyfriend.

Fuck Avi. I don't care about him anymore. He betrayed me and I don't want anything to do with him.

Scott frowns as he looks up at Mitch. "What happened?"

Mitch grabs his notebook again, ready to rant about what happened.

Avi took me to a party and got me drunk. He promised that he would take care of me but he didn't. His friends dared him to get me drunk and have sex with me. He took all these pictures of me and his friends posted them online for everyone to see. I felt so violated after that. I still do. I can't even go online anymore and I haven't been to school yet because I know what people are going to say about me. I hate Avi.

Scott stares at Mitch with shock after he read the note. "That's horrible,"

I wish I'd never gone out with Avi. He was so jealous and possessive. He took everything away from me.

"I... I would never do something like that to you," Scott whispers.

Mitch nods, and hesitates before scooting closer to Scott.

I know you wouldn't. You're not like him.

"I... I've never been in a relationship before, Mitch. But, I'm willing to try. You have to be patient with me. I really do like you and everything. I think you're adorable and I love being around you. Just, patience,"

Mitch nods, a smile forming on his face.

Scott should have been his first boyfriend. Not Avi.

Can I hug you?

Scott looks up at Mitch and smiles. "I would like a hug,"

Mitch grins and then he throws his arms around Scott and hugs him tightly.

Scott chuckles as he wraps his arms around Mitch, pulling him closer to his sides. "Thanks for coming. I didn't think I would have a boyfriend today but... I don't mind," he says.

Boyfriend. Mitch could get used to that.

So, what is this about suicide I keep hearing about?

Scott groans. "Can we please not talk about that right now?" He begs. "I can't..."

Fine. But, can we at least talk about it later. Communication is important in a relationship, you know?

"Fine, but only later. I already had a talk with my aunt. It was a stupid mistake. I was going through a lot and my head wasn't in the right place. I just don't want to talk about it right now," Scott mumbles.

Mitch nods and rests his head on Scott's chest, holding onto him tightly.