Falling for Her [REVISED]

Chapter Thirty-One

"Pwede na." Dianne sighed after seeing me wearing the gown I bought yesterday. I was impulsive, okay? I'm regretting it a little now that I saw her reaction.

"Saan mo naman ba kasi gagamitin 'yan? Aattend ka ba ng kasal?" stressed niyang tanong.

Kasal...

"Why? I want a light purple gown." dahilan ko naman. According to Tristan, purple at pink kasi ang motif ng kasal na pinaplano ni Crissel. I promised myself that I would be there on the happiest day of Zack, and that was his wedding.

"What do you think? It looks good on me naman diba?" tanong ko kay Dianne at umikot pa para makita niya ang design ng gown sa likod. "Fine. It looks good on you." she gave up at umupo na lang sa couch. I smiled bago nagbihis. "What are your plans then? Why did you even ask for a month vacation? Anong gagawin mo?" tanong ni Dianne.

It has been months since I went back here to California. "My dad asked me to help my brother sa company. You know handling a business is tough work, plus he's sealing a partnership deal, and I must be there." I answered habang gumagawa ng coffee. Maaga akong nagising dahil sinugod ako ni Dianne rito.

"And that needs a month of your time?" kunot-noo niyang tanong. "I am attending a wedding too. And I need a rest? Mental, physical and emotional rest." patuloy na pagdadahilan ko. Wala nang ibang nagawa si Dianne kung hindi ang bumuntong-hininga. "Just watch your eating habit. You don't want to ruin your career." paalala niya kaya naman tumango ako.

She left after we talked that after a month ay babalik agad ako sa trabaho. Iyon din naman ang balak ko. A month vacation is enough for me.

Later that afternoon, I decided to go the gym and go for a run since wala rin naman akong ibang gagawin. Ayoko naman manatili lang sa condo ko buong araw dahil boring.

"Uy, Keilla! Nandito ka rin pala!" Anne approached me. Mukhang papunta rin siya sa gym. "Boyfriend mo?" tanong niya bigla at tinuro ang likuran ko kaya tiningnan ko iyon only to find Jonax standing right behind me.

"Hindi...pa." Jonax answered her. "Oh okay. Goodluck sayo. Sana sagutin ka na niya." Anne cheered for him bago umalis.

"What are you doing here?" tanong ko kay Jonax. He's wearing a white shirt and black jeans at converse na sneakers. Ang casual lang pero ang gwapo niya tingnan.

"Hmm? I promised you before you left na pupuntahan kita after ng laro namin. I told you na liligawan kita, hindi ba? Don't worry. I'm not pressuring you. I want to let you know that I will always be here." he smiled.

Promise? Kumunot naman ng bahagya ang noo ko at inalala ang sinabi niya sa akin bago ako umalis ng Pilipinas.

"After ng game... After ng game namin susundan kita sa California. I already made up my mind. I'll be braver this time, Keilla. Liligawan na kita. Hayaan mo akong ligawan kita. I don't care if you still love Zack. Use me if you want.. use me to move one, use me to forget the pain... Gamitin mo lang ako at hahayaan kita pero sana- sana hayaan mo na rin akong iparamdam sayo na gusto kita."

"Seryoso ka ba talaga?" tanong ko sa kanya. Ayoko naman kasi masayang 'yong oras niya sa akin lalo na't wala namang kasiguraduhan na maibabalik ko rin iyong nararamdaman niya para sa akin. Paano kung hindi ko pala talaga siya magugustuhan? Edi nasayang lang ang oras niya? I will feel bad if that happens.

"It's my choice, Kei. Besides, hindi naman masasayang ang oras ko. You're worth the wait. Ayaw kitang madaliin, you deserve slow and genuine love." ngiti niya kaya wala na akong nagawa.

Ang ending ay sinamahan niya ako sa gym kaya naman panay ang asar ni Anne sa akin. "Kaya naman pala gusto ng one month leave, para may bebe time." she chuckled kaya pabiro ko siyang inirapan.