Falling for Her [REVISED]

Epilogue

It's snowing. I sat beside the window, watching the snowfall while enjoying my coffee. It has been- what.. 2 years?

Despite of what happened this past few years.. marami akong natutunan, marami akong na-enjoy na mga bagay at ang pinaka-importante sa lahat, nagawa ko na ang mga pangarap ko para sa sarili ko.

If you will ask if I'm happy? Yes, I am super happy right now.

Is my heart happy? I would answer yes.

Every people needs to move on and forget the past,forget what should be forgotten. Huwag tayong kumapit sa isang bagay na gusto na tayong bitawan.

Sabi nila "follow your heart." Sabi naman ng iba "kailangan use your brain din" at ang iba "just choose what is right" o kaya ay "Just choose what you want."

I chose the one that will be good for me, both physically and mentally, and emotionally. I don't deserve bad things.

"Congratulations sa show mo kahapon! Ang ganda ng lakad mo roon!" Dianne beamed and hugged me out of excitement. I smiled and hugged her back.

"Thank you, Dianne."

Kumalas siya sa yakap at umupo sa tabi ko. I looked at her tummy na ngayon ay malaki na. She's happy with his fiance and they're having their first baby. Masaya ako para kay Dianne because finally, she found her happiness.

I also found mine that night two years ago...

"Keilla," they both called my name.

Jonax looked at Zack, who seems so desperate to talk to me. Wala akong naiintindihan sa nangyayari. Anong ginagawa nilang dalawa rito? I have a bad feeling about this.

"Sige Keilla. Bukas na lang kita kakausapin." sabi ni Jonax at ngumiti bago naglakad paalis. Hinayaan ko na lang siya at tinuon ang atensyon ko kay Zack.

"What is it, Zack?" tanong ko sa kanya.

"Can we talk?" he asked.

It turned out that Zack only wanted to talk to someone para mailabas niya iyong sakit na nararamdaman niya so I listened. He cried and cried, nilabas niya 'yong sakit na nararamdaman niya sa break-up nila ni Crissel. He loves Crissel so much but he knows that he's not the one Crissel wants to be with for the rest of her life. He went to her yesterday to talk about their relationship and they both agreed to break-up kahit na gusto pa naman nila ang isa't isa. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit ganoon ang naging desisyon nila pero labas na ako sa problema nilang 'yon. Hindi na ako mangingialam.

"How about you? Kumusta kayo ni Jonax?" tanong niya naman sa akin after he opened up. Huminga naman ako ng malalim at pinaglaruan ang buhangin. "We're friends." sagot ko.

"He likes you," he stated in a matter of fact.

"I know. I'm just scared that I might leave him too. Just like what I did before."

"Leave the fear in the past, Kei. You should start a new life where only your happiness matters. No fears." he smiled.

Jonax, on the other hand, wanted to ask me out and be his girlfriend. It took me months before I finally said yes to him.

"Uuwi ka na sa Pilipinas bukas?" tanong ni Dianne matapos ang ilang minutong katahimikan. Tumango naman ako. The show yesterday is going to be my last show and it will be going to my last walk as a model. Uuwi na ako sa Pilipinas at doon na ulit ako titira. Tutulong na lang ako sa kompanya kapag kinakailangan.

"Mas maganda to sayo!" sabi ko kay Jonax habang pinapakita ang gray tuxedo na sa kanya. Nandito kami ngayon sa mall para mamili ng isusuot niya at birthday ni Gray ngayon and we will celebrate it tonight.