Bad Guy Gone Good (BOYXBOY)

Broken

Chapter 22: Broken

"For what? What happened?" He asked worriedly. I got up and held his hands. 

"I know what he did to you." I said. There were so many things I wanted to say to him, but I knew I had to deal with this carefully. He looked at me with his blue eyes wide open.

"Wha-what do you mean?" He stuttered. 

"Don't make me say it. I know what Julian did to you in his office. I know you didn't want to. He forced you didn't he?" I said quietly. He looked up at me his brows furrowed and his eyes watery, and still wide. "I'm so sorry that happened, I'm going to kill him, Alec. I'm going to fucking kill him"

"No! See, this is why I didn't want to tell you, Alex. It's over, I don't want to bring up the past, it's over. Just leave it." He was angry, probably most at Julia for telling me. 

"Alec, I can't, you know that. You need closure, you can't-" I began, but he cut me off. 

"Bullshit! You need closure, I don't need anything. I'm leaving-" he looked at me, but it was my time to cut him off this time.

"Wait! You're not leaving until we finish this. I'm not letting you be alone. Why, Alec? Why can't we go to the authorities? Don't tell me it's because he knows you did drugs, cause that's a bullshit excuse, you were fucking raped!" I cried, "You can't just ignore that..." I whispered, tears falling down, I quickly wiped them away, and tried looking strong for him, but it was hard knowing my baby was mistreated heavily. He looked sad too, but he wasn't crying.

"Because... I feel like no one will believe me anyways... I'm not going to go through so much just to not accomplish anything. It's such a long time ago, it feels like everyone won't even care. I didn't say anything in the beginning, that was my mistake, now it's just too late." He looked up at me, so much flashing before his eyes, I can tell he's thinking about it. I grabbed his hand and led him to the bed. We sat beside each other on the edge of the bed, me holding his arms in his lap. 

"We will make them believe, I promise. But Alec..." I looked at him, he sighed. 

"It only happened once, that one time two years ago, he tried touching me again but I didn't let him come near me. He's scared too Alex. He knows what he did was fucked up, he's scared someone finds out. He sometimes made me go to his place but I didn't go, the reason I went to his place recently was because he fooled me into believing he'd apologise. I left right after finding out he wanted more than to apologise." He had hope, very little but it was there. "And the first person who I have allowed touching me since is... you." he smiled shortly. "Flashes of it appears sometimes. It's hard, having to keep to yourself. Not telling you was hardest, I just. I didn't want you to think I was broken. Because I'm not, I'm more mad than sad, I'm not weak." He said earnestly.

"I don't think you're weak, and any other rape-victim aren't weak. I don't think you're broken either, I just think it's okay to be helped through tough times sometimes." I said making him smile, I loved seeing him smile. "But so where is it you go? All those times Elijah complained about you never being at home, if you don't go seeing Julian, who do you go see?"

"I have this friend I visited sometimes. She lives in a group home for troubled teens. But we haven't talked in a long time." He said. 

"Oh... Okay, well. Can I meet her sometime?" I asked.

"Oh I don't know... I'd have to ask her, she isn't very... social." He said. I was confused, he could've told me this instead of saying he visited Julian, I would've been less worried. 

"Okay... But Alec, why didn't you tell me about her before, I thought we agreed no more secrets?" I was hurt that he didn't trust me with this. 

"I don't know... to be honest, I didn't feel like I could trust you a hundred percent before, but I do now. I promise, no more secrets." He said. I smiled, I believed.