I Loved You First // Jerrie Fanfic

Chapter 19

2 weeks have passed by and I still feel like shit. Perrie and I don't talk at school but she kept texting me everyday and most of the time I ignored, but there is a lot of drama going on. Now I care less I don't ignore her completely because I know she is hurting and it looks like she isn't happy. Today after school we took the same bus but not together I was a bit further with another friend of mine and she was just sitting there and looking at mr the entire time but I just ignored her. When my friend left the bus she smiled to me and I just gave her a weak smile back. When the bus got to my stop I left the bus and was walking home when I turned around and saw Perrie was behind me.

"Are you following me now?"

"I actually am." She answered.

"Why?"

"Because we need to talk."

"Just go home Perrie."

"Not until we talk."

"Fine, what do you want?"

"I'm going to break up with Zayn."

"Why?"

"I'm not happy like this."

"If you think you're getting me back by breaking up with him then you're wrong."

"I'm not breaking up with him to get you back, i'm just not happy anymore."

"Okay."

"And there's also another reason for that."

"What?"

"I'm going to tell you that after summer break."

"So we're not going to talk for two months?" I asked and she shook her head.

"No, I do wanna talk to you but I just want to tell you then because by then I think we'll both have figured things out."

"What if we haven't figured it out?"

"We will, I mean I will."

"Just tell me now Perrie. I can't wait 2 months for you to tell me."

"I can't, you know what you just go home and I go home now okay?"

"I'm not going anywhere until you've told me the other reason why you want to break up with him."

"Please Jade, don't do this."

"You're only wasting my time, just tell me already."

"Just go home Jade, your mom is probably waiting for you."

"Nah, she's cool now tell me."

"You really aren't gonna leave if I don't tell you?" She asked and I shook my head.

"Fine, I realized that i'm only with him because I can't accept my feelings for you." She said looking down.

"F-feelings for me?" I asked stuttering.

"Yeah, I just I've never liked girls before. I never even thought about liking a girl that way and when you said you had feelings for me I got confused because you are really different from everyone else and I do have feelings for you but I couldn't accept it, I couldn't accept liking a girl that's why I got into this relationship. I thought if I was with a boy I could maybe ignore my feelings for you."

"Wauw, that's so selfish."

"I know, by doing this I only hurt you and myself. I'm not happy this way that's why i'm gonna break up with him."

"So basically you just used him."

"No well maybe."

"God, you only think about yourself. I just can't believe this."

"Now i'm going home, can I? I told you the reason."

"Yeah, go." I answered.

When I got home ofcourse my mom had to ask why I was late.

"Why are you late Jade?"

"I was just talking to a friend."

"Okay." My mom said and I walked upstairs. I couldn't stop thinking about what Perrie told me. So she feels the same and wants to break up with Zayn, maybe I should take my chance and ask her to be my girlfriend, but what if she says no? I'm scared of being rejected not only in this case. I'm always scared of getting told no or being rejected. The next day I decided to talk to Perrie about this, i'm surprised I even had the guts to talk to her.

"Perrie can we talk?"  I asked her after class had finished.

"Yeah sure. Are you mad?"

"No, but what are we going to do? We can't just ignore what you said yesterday. And I also don't want you to get out of my life." I admitted.

"I also don't want you out of my life."

"I know that maybe this is too soon and you're going to be shocked but why don't we just get in a relationship you know?"

"What?" She asked.

"Look we both have feelings for eachother but we don't know if they are real or what we are feeling. The only way we're going to know is if we get together."

"I don't know,Jade. Isn't this too soon?"

"It was just a suggestion you don't have to say yes."

"I didn't even break up with Zayn yet."

"What are you waiting for?"

"I just want to tell him in person, i'm not gonna break up over text, that's low."

"Just think about it okay, but don't let me wait for long. I can't wait forever." I said and she nodded.

"And you know how my parents are."

"Well mine are the same, so we can be a secret." I said and she nodded and walked away.

I can't believe I just really asked her that, she didn't say yes though but she also didn't say no so i'm hoping she won't make me wait long and tell her answer as soon as possible. I've never been in a relationship before and I don't know how it feels or how I have to act, I don't know anything. I just hope she says yes, if not we can stay friends.

New chapter is up. Do you think Perrie will say yes? Leave a comment and vote pls.