A Fight With Depression

~What happens when we die~

What happens when we die? When our demons finally catch us. Do we fade away, forgotten forever by the world. Do we just go to heaven and stay, or are we reincarnated into another being and live another life? 

I have herd a lot of near death stories t where a man died for 3 minutes and explained that there is no bright light, no angels, but what felt to him was that he was on another world with about an inch of water every where, and he had no body. But he also felt that every worry in life was gone, like all of the weight of sadness and loss of loved ones throughout his life, but when he came to on the other side all of those feelings came flooding back as the doctors have saved his life and he is back on earth.

With stories like this , I'm not saying that I don't believe there is a god, but i come to wonder if there is an afterlife. Why would our god make the afterlife so boring and not make it fun?

What happens if you commit suicide, do you get to go to the afterlife? Do suicide victims go to hell? People who commit suicide shouldn't go to hell because they are only trying to end their pain and suffering, and sending them to hell just makes things worse for them. Suicide shouldn't be a sin, just because you took your own precious life, doesn't mean that you brutally murdered someone.

I've researched someone who claims to be a "Medium" (People who can feel and or see spirits) And her webpage says  

" I've also been in contact with suiciders who linger, who refuse to go into the light because of fear, shame or guilt. They don't want to be judged. So they hang on as long as they can, usually by attaching themselves to a family member and using their energy to stay connected to Earth."

I don't know if anyone out there watches ghost hunters but when someone dies, I guess they supposedly have to use energy from electronics or from our sole...idk but its very cool and I believe in the supernatural world, well not like zombies, vampires, werewolves and stuff like that, although there could be a possibility for zombies, maybe. But for those who do try and kill themselves, don't do it, I've come very close as it is to going down that road. This ladies webpage also says, "Others realize they made a mistake and are desperate to get back to their bodies, so they hang on for a bit too. Some linger to get forgiveness from their living loved ones, or in an attempt to ease their loved ones' pain. Some linger because they're still carrying depression and can't slough it off. 

I really hope this is true, because I have had a couple family members commit suicide, and as many of you may know, Chester Bennington of Linkin Park committed suicide a few months ago, and I really hope he is enjoying himself in the after life, because his fans down here on earth are greatly depressed by his passing. 

I know that when someone commits suicide it can create feelings of anger towards them. Like me with Chester, who's music helped me through a lot f hard times of death in my family and now that he's gone his music just reminds me that he's dead and gone. 

But what happens when someone accidentally overdoses on drugs? Do they still have sins for using them in the first place? Or do they get a ticket to heaven as well. I know that people who suffer with depression try to use drugs to ease the pain,I know i have...but not anymore just saying...and it was only pot. but if they accidentally give themselves the wrong dose, is that even classified as suicide? I don't think that it should be.