Defining sadness
You can't say you know how a suicidal person feels.
That's the worse thing to do.
Telling someone you understand their pain is telling them you've gone through the same thing.
Let me tell you this.
If your life is great. Bills paid. Tears unspilled. Family in one piece. They love you, you love them. Even the goldfish loves you. No; that means you can't understand. You can't understand the sadness of the world seemingly hating you.
You can't understand the fact that some people just have so much on there plate. And on top of that a sad miserable life to the point to where ending it would be an escape.
No.
Just no
One cannot understand me or whomever is reading this passage of my fucked up thoughts. And totally 100% per goddamn cent, say they understand my pain unless they have felt the same pain or pain similar to it.
You can't understand the fact that once i think of the word cut. My mind tells me to cut my skin until I eventually give in.
Give in until blood is spilt.
I want to be better I really do. But I'll only get better if I'm aloud to have time to heal. On my own accord.
Could be a day.
Could be a year.
Or it could be 12 goddamn long ass mother fucking years of trial and error. To finally either day this is enough and end it. Or this is enough. And live my life to the fullest.
Bi polar is a bitch. But people live it. Ptsd is a cunt but people get through it.
Fuck depression. But don't look at the baby it created.
End the stigma. But can your really end it?
Live your life through the hurt so you can help others in the future.
Awaken in the happiness once you find it. And share it with others.
Be kind, humble and generous and you'll see how nice it is to heal.
Just be you and you only without others guiding your path in your own life.
To define sadness is to define yourself once sadness has had its way.
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A Fight With Depression
Short Story(Trigger Warnings) Do not read if you are bothered by reading very real everyday senarios such as suicide, self harm, and other things that tend to mend with having most mental illnesses. This book is a different book where every chapter is a short...
