MISUSED (NOT EDITED)

4.) Woman's Worth

Tanya
January 19th, 2013

"I heard your birthday is dis' Saturday.. got anything planned?" Ron asked as he slid across from me.

I've been limiting how much I talk to him, one cuz I was a minor by law, two I didn't need to get caught up in his lifestyle and three I just didn't need a relationship or the added drama.

"Not really.. I don't celebrate my birthday." I admitted as I dipped my fry into my honey mustard.

"You turning 18.. that's an accomplishment!" He tried to encourage but I wasn't hearing it. "I don't celebrate it Ron, that's that." I stressed, it grew quiet between us two and I appreciated the silence.

"You don't have to close me out so much.. I'm not tryna hurt you." He stated as he slid out the booth, but I grabbed his arm.

"Sorry." I apologized, "Yeah you've been saying dat' a lot." He added pulling away gently then went back to work.

I pushed my food away and dropped my head on the table mumbling lyrics to a song I was working on.

"If you treat me fairly, I'll give you all my goods. Treat you like a real woman should, Baby, I know you're worth it.. if you never play me.." I sang softly to myself.

I couldn't figure out how I wanted the hook to sound, I had a little bit of the chorus, but I know I needed to get my hook together.

It's been like this for majority of my songs lately and I can't figure out why..

When I felt my phone vibrate against the table I lifted my head up and jumped slightly. Ron was sitting here this whole time.. Lord I hope he didn't hear me singing.

"Gotta stop doing that." I laughed nervously as I tapped my finger against my knee. "I wanted to apologize, but you were singing so I jus' decided ta' listen."

He admitted, "Make yourself known next time." I remarked as I gathered my trash and placed my phone in my back pocket and he followed me.

"If I do dat' you won't continue to sing." He announced and I sent him a fake smile. "That's the point." I told him as I brushed by him and into the back to punch back in.

"You sing?" Monica asked once I got in the drive thru area, I sent a glare in Ron's direction and he just smirked at me.

"Not really." I mumbled as I placed my headset on. "Thas' not what I'm hearing." She said giving me a look, my mom used to do.

"It's something personal." I half lied, "Well.. there's dis night club like ten minutes from here, that has poetry night, majority of the people either sing or do spoken word."

She explained grabbing a piece of receipt paper and pen and wrote the address down. I read over the address then stuck it in my pocket, just as a car came up.

"Welcome to Wendy's!" I chimed in my best professional voice, Ron them teased me about how white I sounded whenever I did that..

"Hey girl!!" The voiced yelled through the speakers, it sounded like Nina.. it had to be her ass.

"Hey.. Nina." I greeted unsurely, "We gotta work on your fake greetings luv' dis ain't cutting it." She said causing everyone to laugh.