Decisions (Harry Styles)

Chapter 15

HARRY'S POV

That girl is fucking insane. She's got issues. What is she thinking , that I jumped on her? I would never do that. I did it once but you know, I didn't even know her. And I was drunk. I may be a jerk but well... not with her I guess? Even if she is crazy. When she left, I was mad. I was telling her the truth and she didn't even bother listening to me. "You're lying Harry!". I was just telling the fucking truth.

Maybe she doesn't want to admit that she kissed me. It's no big deal. It's not like if she was the first girl to kiss me.

She has to admit it, she likes me. She can't control it. She pretends to hate me only to hide how much she likes me.

"Hey. If I come to see you are you going to run away without listening to me again?"

I needed to see her. I had to kiss that girl again. She was the biggest challenge I've ever had, and I had to win. I had the feeling that she was worth it. Usually, I'm more into easy girls. That girl is hard, fucking hard. But for some reasons, I like it.

"I'm busy Harry"

"No you're not. I'll be there in about 7 minutes"

JAMIE'S POV

He was getting on my nerves, a lot. Does he think he can come over whenever he wants to? I told him I was busy and he still didn't get it. I'm not busy, he is right. But I don't want to see him and it was a polite way to tell him.

That guy is invasive. What does he want from me? I have nothing to give, especially not to that jerk. I can't get attached to a guy like him, I will just get broken.

He knocked on my door. I'm lucky he doesn't enter without permission !

"Hello Jamie"

"Why are you here Harry ? I told you I was busy"

"You look really busy" he said with that arrogant smirk.

"You can't just come here whenever you want when I tell you not to !"I said, pissed off.

"First of all, I think you are overreacting, it's only the second time I come here. Second of all, you never told me you didn't want me to come. You only told me you were busy. Third of all, it's the reason why I came here. I wanted to help you with whatever you're busy with. And last of all, I know you are glad I'm here even if you don't want to admit it." he calmly said.

He was infuriating.

"Harry, I don't need your help. I know you didn't even come here to help me. "

"I know you don't need help because you're not busy, you lied to me" he said.

" I am the liar now ? You lied to me all night yesterday ! I know you kissed me Harry and I was drunk. You're a jerk." I said, almost yellig at him.

"I didn't lie to you. I understand that I'm a jerk okay? Stop repeating it all over again. You think I kissed you, but you're wrong. I wanted to kiss you, that's true. But you're the one who did it first. I know you were drunk and maybe I should've stopped you, but for some reasons I couldn't. There's something in you that's addictive. I have no idea what it is, I'm just trying to find out. You probably had bad experiences in your life and I can tell it by the way you're so distant. I've never said that shit to anyone before but please, trust me. I can help you with whatever you're going through. I can be a bastard, but I know it and I'm trying to hide that side of me when I'm with you. I'm not asking for anything special, but I just want you to know that you can open up to me if you feel like it."

I was speechless. I felt the tears running down my face while I was trying to formulate a response. Nothing came out. He was there, standing awkwardly in front of me as I was trying to pull myself together.

Then, out of nowhere, he took me in his arms. I snuggled against him and started crying. I broke down. I was ashamed, but I just couldn't restrain myself anymore. It was too much.

"I'm sorry" he slightly said.