Decisions (Harry Styles)

Chapter 18

JAMIE'S POV 

We drove for about 4 hours. I loved singing with him. Usually, I feel shy and I never sing in front of anyone. With Harry, it's different. Everything is different. Being around him is so simple. He doesn't talk much, and I like it that way. I'm not very talkative myself and I like the fact that he respects that. 

I still have no idea what he wants from me, but I don't even care anymore. For once, I just want to feel good and right now, I do. When I'm with him, I can be myself. 

"It's getting late, I should drive you back to your place or you'll be really tired tomorrow" he said, keeping his eyes on the road.

"Yes you're right, thank you" 

"Unless you want to be a bad girl again..." He said with his usual smirk. What did he want...

"I don't really get it Harry" I said, really unsure.

"There's a lake over there. When I was young, me and my sister were going in that lake once a month at night. It was cold as fuck and the one who was able to stay in the lake the longer won." he said while staring at me.

"What did you win?" I asked. I didn't really like this idea, but seeing him talking about his family made me really curious. I was seeing another part of him.

"Honour I guess. I was always winning. I'm the best I swear, no one can beat me." he said with his usual arrogant smirk.

"Conceited much?" I said trying to hide my smile. Damn he was something...

"I swear, try to beat me?"

"I'm not jumping in that cold water Harry. You are crazy." I seriously answered. Who would jump in a lake at 10 pm? I don't even have my swimsuit. That's insane.

"I knew you were a good girl. Admit it, you said you were a bad girl only to kiss me didn't you?" he said, as arrogant as he could be.

"You are totally insane Harry" 

"You can admit it, that's fine with me you know? Kissing me is a good proof that you are a bad girl, since it's the only way for you to prove it to me. Are you scared to break the rules Jamie ?" he said, provoking me. 

"You're wrong. You don't even know me."I answered. I was getting slightly mad.

"Stop saying I don't know you. I know you more than what you think. You're a good girl Jamie, and it's totally fine. You always follow the rules and you always need to be perfect. But I know how hard it can be. Let it go Jamie. Forget what people think of you and just live your life. It's good to break the rules sometimes" he said while stopping the car.

I was mad. Really mad. Who was he to tell me those things ? Yes, I'm a good girl. So what? I can do bad things too...

"Do you have any towels?" I asked. I needed to show him that he doesn't know me. Not at all.

"Backseat." he said with that big smile on his face. God, I hate that smile. But somewhat, it's addictive.

Without answering, I opened the door and started running to the lake. He won't tell me who I am. I'm the only one who knows. I can break the rules and I will show him. I will prove it to him but most of all, I'll prove it to myself.

I took off my pants but kept my shirt on. Then, I ran to the water. It was cold, so freaking cold. I didn't even care. I loved how free I felt.

"It's not that bad isn't it?" he said as he was getting closer to me. He had kept only his boxers and I have to admit that he has a great body. Usually, I hate tattoos. But on him, they look different. I have to admit that I kind of really like it.

"No. I'm gonna win. The water is not that cold" I said, trying not to look at his bare chest...   

"Fine then, we will stay here for a little while I guess!" he said with that god damn smirk. 

I hate it so much that I'm starting to like it...