JAMIE'S POV
After that wrangle with Zayn, I didn't quite know what to tell him. I could see that he was upset and I didn't want to aggravate it even more. He was really silent, still trying to deal with his anger.
" Have a good day. Text me if you need anything." he said, breaking the silence.
"I'll be alright Harry. Thanks, you too."
Then, he left to his class. It was going to be a long day and I could feel it. I was always thinking about him, asking myself so many questions. It's killing me. I still don't understand why he is always trying to be with me. I don't understand why I'm always responding to that. Something keeps pulling me closer to him.
I can hear the little voice in my head telling me to go away, and I hate that. For once, I want to live my life without being scared of what happens next. Right now, he makes me feel good and that's the most important thing. Maybe it won't last forever, but it will be worth it.
That does not mean I'll start to trust him but from now on, I'll do whatever makes me feel good. And if that means spending time with him, that's fine.
I need to let go of my past. Because it happened once doesn't mean it'll happen twice. I'm strong and I can overcome this obstacle. He destroyed me, but that doesn't mean he will ruin me. Not at all.
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At the end of the day, I took my books and headed to the exit. To my surprise, once I reached the outside, I saw Harry. He was there, leaning on his car. When his eyes met mine, I couldn't help but look away. What was he doing here ?
"Hey Jamie" he said, coming closer to me.
"Hi Harry, what are you doing here?" I directly said.
"Well, since I drove you to school this morning, I thought I could drive you back ?" he said, smiling.
"Yeah okay, thank you" I answered. He seemed quite surprised. He was probably expecting me to say no and was ready to argue with me again. I was exhausted and just wanted to get home as fast as I could. That's probably why I said yes so fast...
"Maybe we could hang out? Let's go grab dinner or something?" he asked, probably trying to took advantage of the fact that I said yes too easily.
"No not tonight, sorry I have a test tomorrow I really need to study." I honestly answered.
"Come on, we won't be back too late" he said, trying to argue as he always does.
"Harry, listen. You really need to give me some space okay? When I tell you no, it's no. Don't try to argue all the time, it's getting annoying." I calmly said.
"Okay fine, space. I can give you space. Maybe after dinner we could hang out ? At 8, that'd be perfect!" he said, I thought he was joking, but he looked serious.
"I told you I need to study for my test Harry." I answered.
"What for? You're brilliant Jamie ! You surely already know whatever you're going to study and it is going to be a big waste of time. I understand that you don't trust people and you're not confident with most of them, if not all of them. But you should trust yourself. You are clever and you will beat the shit out of that test again! " he said. He was right, I know most of the things I'm going to study, but I need to read them again just to make sure. I don't understand what's wrong with that.
"It's none of your buisness. I can study as much as I want to. You have no idea if I know these things or not." I answered back, trying to convice myself that I was right.
"Stop trying to reach perfection. It won't happen, though you're not far from it. You can't always be perfect and if you try to you're gonna get sick." he said, looking at me straight to the eyes again. Who was he to tell me those things? He has to get over that "Miss perfect" thing. It gets annoying.
"Stop trying to talk about what you don't even know. I'm not trying to be perfect all the time." I said, starting to become a little upset.
"Okay then, I'll be waiting for you at 8 in Ginger's park once you'll be done with that useless studying." he said, winking at me.
"Only if I'm done." I said in what I hope was a strict tone.
"You'll be, believe me" he said while getting in his car. I sat in the passenger seat and we drove silently to my place, with that same usual CD filling up the car.
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