Decisions (Harry Styles)

Chapter 32

JAMIE'S POV

It's been a week since Harry told me everything. A week since he read a part of my life. To be honest, everything is perfect between us. He drives me to school everyday and we usually hang out after school. Being with him is always so easy. I never thought we could get along so well.

I think about him all the time. It's now easy for me to forget everything he has done in his past. When I look at him, I see who he is and not who he was. Right now, he is being gentle and he makes me feel good. I don't care if it could change one day. For once in my life, I just want to enjoy the moment.

Hey Jae. How's the writing?

It's great to receive a text from him, I feel like he thinks about me too. Oh and yes, I have a nickname now.

Hello H. I'm not writing now, just relaxing.

Oh so that means that I can come and take you to the lake with me!

No, but if you ask maybe?

Demanding is still hard for him. But it's fine with me, I find it adorable. Sometimes.

Would you do me the favor of coming with me to the lake please?

I like his playful side.

Of course Harry.

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We were in the car and as usual, only the music was breaking the silence. But it was one of those peaceful silence.

Since I got in the car, he had that same smirk on his face. He had something going on in his mind and it was killing me.

"Tell me what's going on Harry!" I said, for the thousandth time.

"You're giving me orders now? You should know that it's not okay to do that love. Ask questions instead" he said, chuckling slightly.

"Fine. Could you please tell me what is going on?" I asked, sarcastically.

"Nope" he said, popping the "p". God, he was infuriating.

"Why not?"

"Because it's a surprise." he said, still smirking.

"I hate surprises" I said, pretending to sulk.

"Deep inside of you, I know you love them." he was always so confident and I didn't know how he was doing this.

I could tell by the smile on his face that he was proud at himself, but I couldn't tell why. As we arrived at the lake, he got out of his car and guided me to the lake.

"Here we are!" he said. As I looked around, I saw an amazing boat floating on the water.

"What do you mean Harry?"I asked, not understanding.

"This is my boat and you are coming with me for a little ride!"he said, with his perfect smile.

"You have a boat?" I asked, amazed. It was absolutly beautiful.

"Not exactly. My dad had a boat. When I was young, we were always navigating together and he taught me how to drive it. I saw my mom a week ago and she gave it to me... It's been more than two years since I last sailed. " he calmly said. "Do you trust me enough to sail with me?"

"Of course I do" I said, chuckling.

I loved to hear him talk about his father. I don't know why but he looked so serene when he was talking about him now. His strength was remarkable.

"After you miss" he said playfully, while helping me to get in his boat.

"Oh thank you dear gentleman"I said, teasing him back.

He started the boat and we sailed away. I loved to feel the wind on my face. Harry was handsome. His curly hair was dancing as the wind was brushing it. He looked really concentrated.

"You know what? I've never been on the boat with someone other than my father." he calmly said.

"I'm sorry..." I said, still speechless. I didn't quite know what to tell him when he was talking about his father. It was moving me a lot.

"Don't be! Thank you for coming with me, it means a lot. You are my first, again" he said, winking playfully.

"You know that it's nothing, Harry.How often were you navigating with your father?"

"Once a week. It kind of became a tradition. We were only going on the boat for an hour or two, but it was the best part of my week and I was looking forward to it. I could always tell him everything that was going through my mind and he was always there for me. You know, I miss those nights on the boat more than anything. After the incident... he was going on the boat alone. I just... yeah. You know, I wish I could get this back" Harry was getting stronger all the time. It's amazing that even after what happened, he is still able to talk about it. I admire that boy.

"That is amazing Harry. Nothing will take those memories back you know? They are yours" I said, coming closer to him and hugging him slightly.

"I know. You know what Jamie?" he said, looking straight into my eyes.

"What?"

"I wish you could hug me when you don't pity me." he calmly said.

"I don't understand what you mean?"

"You're getting close to me only when you pity me. You know, you kissed me at the funeral because it was hard for me to say goodbye to my father. You were snuggling against me when I told you everything about Gabriella. And now, I talk about my father and you still hug me. It's always like that. I mean, I don't hate it, I just wish it could happen in different circumstances."he gently said.

"That's not true. The first time we kissed had nothing to do with this" I knew he was right, but I didn't do it on purpose. I wanted to get closer to him, but in those circumstances, it was easier. I guess he was less intimidating.

"You mean when I jumped on you in the bathroom? Of course it had nothing to do with this, I was being stupid and unrespectful. That was who I was before meeting you." he said.

"No ! I don't see this kiss as our first one. I mean, at the other party, when we were outside." I said, smiling at the thought of it.

"You were drunk, it doesn't count! And I challenged you a lot you know?" he said, chuckling slightly.

"You didn't tell me that! Liar. You told me I was the one who kissed you because I wanted to!" I said, teasing him.

"That was true. I know you wanted to" he said with his usual perfect smirk.

"Conceited" I said, chuckling slightly.

"I have to admit that I wanted to kiss you as much as you did.." he seriously said.

"How can you be so sure about that?"I said, challenging him.

"I'm not sure about it. I'm just hoping." he adorably said.

"Keep dreaming."I said, teasing him. I couldn't give up that easily...

"Right now, do you want to kiss me as much as I want to kiss you?"

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AN

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