Decisions (Harry Styles)

Chapter 46

"Tell me your secrets, ask me your questions. Oh let's go back to the start..." AN : One of my favourite song by one of my favourite band. You can guess this one ;)

HARRY'S POV

I kept on running during an hour. I just couldn't stop. Every single muscle was hurting me and I was extremely exhausted. But still, I couldn't stop.

Physical pain is something I can easily handle. Healing is fucking easy when you're physically injured. You go see the doctor and he tells you exactly what to do and it's only a matter of time before you feel better. On the other hand, I still have no idea how to deal with a broken heart. I feel like she is the only one that can really help me. What can I do when the person that caused me pain is the only one who can comfort me?

I knew that romance wasn't for me. Maybe I'm destined to fall in love with people I can't have. Maybe it's all my fault and I just don't fall in love with the right people. When Gabriella destroyed me, I vowed never to fall in love again. I failed and thought that Jamie is different. When you're in love, everything seems different and you feel like nothing can reach you. But that's only an illusion. One day, all those things are going to reach you and it'll hurt even more.

Tears started to fill my eyes. It wasn't sadness, but anger. I was angry at myself. I allowed her in my life too easily. I told her almost everything about me and right now, I feel like shit for doing it. I was angry at Jamie for kissing that guy. She lied to me the whole time.

I had to forget her, but I didn't want to. I was hoping that I could just wake up and that it would only be a nightmare. If I could turn back time, I would do anything to prevent her from cheating.

When I looked at my phone, I had 6 missed calls. I knew exactly who it was and as much as I wanted to call her back, I couldn't. I didn't know what to tell her and I didn't want to fall back in her game wherein I was the loser.

JAMIE'S POV

I was getting anxious. Harry wasn't answering me at all. That's why I decided to drive to his place.

When I got there, his car was in the driveway so I knew that he couldn't be that far. I knocked on the door repeatedly. No answer. Where could he be?

I sat on the porch and waited for him. He was probably really mad at the moment and I was feeling miserable. I just wanted to hold him in my arms and never let him go. He means the world to me and I would never cheat on him. It was such a big misunderstanding.

After two hours, I finally saw him. He was breathless and looked exhausted. He was sweating and I could still see the anger on his face. When he saw me, he stopped walking. His breathing was heavy and I knew that he was going to explode.

"Leave, now." He said on a harsh tone.

"Harry, you have to let me talk, okay? It was"

"No" he cut me off. "Take your things and leave. I don't want to hear anything you have to say." I knew he was only trying to protect himself by saying this, but I had to talk and I knew that if I kept acting like this, he wouldn't listen to me. I had to get to his level.

"I know that you are upset and I understand. But give me two minutes only to explain to you what happened." I said, on an authoritative tone.

"Two minutes. You leave after." He said, avoiding my gaze.

"Harry, I did not cheat on you"

"Kissing is cheating to me. The worst thing isn't that you kissed him; you lied to me. You told me you were going with your brother and then I find you kissing that jerk. I trusted you Jamie. I was starting to fucking fall in love with you and you broke everything we had." When Harry is mad, he says everything that comes to his mind and that's what I like about it. He was upset but still, those words made me happy. He was in love with me.

"I know Harry and you're right. I lied to you but I wanted to protect you."

"Protect me from what? Seeing you with another guy? Thanks, it worked! "He cut me off, again. I didn't have time to say what I had to say. He was always trying to argue and I couldn't handle it.

"Would you stop talking just for 5 seconds please? Harry, I didn't cheat on you. That guy was Brandon. He wanted to see me and I couldn't tell you because he threatened me not to. I was scared but I had to do this. I had to finally get rid of him. At first, it didn't really work and that's what you saw. He kissed me." Finally, he was speechless. He clenched his fists. "I was taken by surprise. I didn't kiss him back and after your fight with him, I told him every single thing I wanted to tell him. How much he destroyed me, how much I hate him, how much of a jerk he is and how much you helped me."

"It's the truth now, right?" he said, his voice breaking. I nodded. His face softened and he came closer. He took me in his arms and stroked my back gently. It was exactly what I needed right now and it felt so good to have Harry back..."I'm so sorry" he softly said in my ear.

"It's okay Harry, I understand."

"No it's not. I didn't let you explain yourself and I got back to the old me. I let anger take control of myself..." His voice was filled with remorse.

"Shh" I said. "It's alright. I would've reacted the same way."

"Why? We're not even together" he said with his usual smirk. Harry the Tease was back!

"You're right. Let's kiss everyone else then" I said, teasing him back.

"Would you be my girlfriend? Please?" he asked. I didn't expect that at all and it left me speechless. "I'm in love with you Jamie and I don't want to lose you. I want you to be only mine and I can't handle seeing you with another guy anymore. Be mine." Two seconds ago he was teasing me and now he is more serious than ever.

"I love you" I answered him, with a kiss that meant everything.

We were back, stronger than before.

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AN

Hi guys !

Hope you liked the chapter. Don't forget to vote and comment :)

Tomorrow, I'm leaving for a little bit more than a week so I don't think I will be able to update. But I'll be back don't worry ! It's worth it because in less than 3 days, I'm seeing the boys for the first time. I'm so pumped ! After this, I'm going to need that one week vacation to get over over all these emotions lol.

Thanks for reading! Love you all

Aly x