Decisions (Harry Styles)

Chapter 38

JAMIE'S POV

To my surprise, when Harry left after breakfast, I felt really good. Telling him everything about my past was easier than what I expected. Of course it was hard to go through all these emotions again and to finally open up thereupon. But something made it easier.

His reaction was absolutely perfect to me. At first, he was really angry and I didn't need that at all. But Harry is like that. However, he calmed down so fast. He was comprehensive without pitying me and it meant everything to me.

I liked the fact that the next morning, it was as if nothing happened the night before. As if I never told him anything. I knew that it meant a lot to him, but he knew that I wanted to get over it. He wasn't avoiding the subject; he just knew that it was unnecessary to talk about it.

This morning was absolutely perfect. He made me feel so innocent again. We were teasing each other like children do. It was an amazing feeling. I felt carefree and untroubled. His innocence fades on me and to be honest I love it.

When he told me that he was starting to fall in love with me, he caught me off guard. That's why I kissed him. I had no idea what to answer back.

I know that I have strong feelings for Harry, but I have no idea what kinds of feelings they are. I know that I always want to be close to him, but this is how friends feel towards each other isn't it? Maybe I'm in love with Harry but to be honest, I've never been truly in love so I have no idea what it feels like.

If loving means being confused all the time, feeling better when he is around, hating him as much as you can like him, wanting to hear his voice, dreaming about him, missing him and not being able to let go of his arms when he holds me ; then yes, I might be in love with Harry Styles.

HARRY'S POV

I can't stop thinking about Jamie. I feel so much closer to her since she told me everything. It's just us right now, no more secrets. This morning was absolutely fucking perfect. I didn't want to tell her that I was starting to fall in love with her immediately, but it just came out. I know that she didn't even answer me but damn, that kiss was freaking perfect.

I need to fix her and I know I can. I'm not good with words and all these kinds of bullshit, but actions speak louder than words. I can be good to her and I'll prove it. No more crap, I need to be freaking serious now. She's too broken and I will not get a second chance.

I need to man up a little bit. That's why I took my phone and decided to call her.

"Hello?" her beautiful voice filled my ear.

"Hi Jamie it's me."

"Harry? You never call usually?" she said, looking worried.

"Well, if that's not okay with you I can just end the call and text you instead?" I said, teasing her.

"It's okay Harry" she answered, chuckling slightly. I was in love with that sound.

"I prefer hearing your voice than reading your text. So, what are your plans for tonight?" I asked, excepting her to tell me a lie about how busy she is again.

"I'm free tonight, why?" she said, to my surprise.

"Maybe we could hang out together?" I said clumsily.

"Of course" she answered.

"Well can I start again?"

"What do you mean Harry?" poor Jamie, I know that I'm so fucking hard to understand.

"I don't want us to just "hang out tonight". My invitation stands for something else. I want to ask you out on a proper date tonight. I mean... We could could go to the movie theatre if you'd like?" I finally asked her, probably sounding absolutely pathetic.

"Sure Harry." she answered. I swear I could feel her smile through the phone.

"I'll come pick you up at 7. You can choose the movie since I'm a real gentleman." I said. She started laughing again.

"I know, you always say it." she said. She was cute as fuck.

"I prefer if you could say it by yourself." I teased.

"You're a gentleman Harry"

"I know, thank you." I couldn't help but smile. Did I ever say that I loved that playful side of her? Cause I love it so fucking much.

"So...I'll see you tonight then?"

"Sure you will. Take care Jamie." I said, ending the call.

I was anxious. Fucking anxious. I felt like everything needed to be perfect. I didn't want to make any mistake. She has to know that I will always be there for her. I want to protect that girl.

I want to be the only she thinks about. I want to be the only one she wants to see when she's down. I want to be the only to make her laugh and smile. I want to be the only one to protect her. I want to be her only one. And most of all, I want her to be my one and only.

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AN

Hello!

First, I'm sorry it's a really short update but I'm on my phone so it's longer... Second, I'm sorry cause it took me like 5 days to update which is a lot. I've been really busy. Tomorrow I'm going to write again a longer chapter. Hope you'll all forgive me !

Love you all so much .

Aly , x