Decisions (Harry Styles)

Chapter 24

JAMIE'S POV

It's been a week since Harry's comeback. To be honest, it was one of the hardest week I've been through. He was down and I couldn't stand to see him like this. Even if he wanted to seem alright, I knew he wasn't.

During that week, he didn't open up. I tried to talk to him about his past, but it just wasn't the right time. I didn't want to put any more pressure on him.

Today was the day ; his dad's funeral. Harry asked me to accompany him. To be honest I was shocked. I had been there for him when he needed someone to talk to, but I wasn't expecting him to ask me something as big as this. I knew it was important to him and that he couldn't do it alone. Truth is, I'm not sure if I'm the right person for this.

At this point, I don't even care, I just want him to feel better.

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During the ceremony, Harry was so strong. He didn't say a word and I could tell he was keeping everything inside. During his mother's speech, tears were filling his eyes. It was so moving and I could tell he was relating to it a lot.

With every word his mother said, I could feel his body tense. It was getting harder for him.Then, I took his hand. I have no idea why I did that, but I had to. To my touch, his body relaxed. He was struggling so hard to get through this and I was admiring him.

When his mother stopped talking, he stood up and took her place. I had no idea that he was going to talk. He looked slightly uncomfortable in front of all these people and as soon as he started talking, a heavy silence settled.

"My dad was a brave man. He was always there for me, my sister and my mom, no matter what. He was my role model." he stopped talking and looked into my eyes. He had the courage to keep talking, he just didn't know it. I gave him a small nod and he continued. "Unlike you, I didn't lost him 3 weeks ago. I lost him on January 12th 2012, the day I messed up. Worst is, I didn't even realize that it was all my fault. I almost killed someone and I deserved everything that was happening to me ; going to jail, seeing my mom hurt and most of all, not seeing my dad anymore." tears were filling his eyes and I wasn't sure if he was going to be able to finish what he started. With that last bit of courage he had, he kept going. "Unlike you, when I lost him, I had the power to have him back. But I was too selfish, and I didn't. Dad, I'm sorry. I know I've made your life a nightmare. I'm sorry that because of my mistakes, you lost everything you had. You've lost your job, your family, your honour...everything. If I could, I'd go back in time and change everything I've done. I know it's too late, but I can't let you go without asking you for forgiveness. I promise that to this day on, I'll change. I'll change for you. I want to become as good as you were. Please, lead me to this path even if I don't deserve a second chance. I promise I won't let you down, not again. I love you."

I broke down in tears. What he said was absolutly perfect and he hadn't even flinched.He was stronger than what I thought and he proved it to everyone.

I was totally lost. I knew a little bit more about him but everything was blurred in my head. I was moved and when he sat next to me, I couldn't even say a word to him. Nothing was worth what he just said to his dad.

"Are you okay?" he asked. He was asking me if I was okay? That was inverted. "Don't cry..." he said while looking at me straight into the eyes again.

"What you said was absolutly brilliant. So sincere..." I said, still speechless.

"I meant every word. I just.. I had to do this" he said, and I knew he was absolutly right.

"You are so strong, Harry."

"No. He was way stronger than me. I need to stop being an asshole. I'm sick of all my shit. I always destroy people around me and look what it does? I feel like shit and they feel like shit. I'm done with all this" he said as he was starting to get angry at himself, again.

"You think you make people feel like shit, but you don't. Stop pushing people away because you're scared of hurting them, it just hurts even more. I know how good you can be for anyone. Believe in yourself, Harry. " I said, looking straight into his eyes.

"Do you think I'm good for you ?" he said, his voice breaking as he was leaning closer to me.

"I think you could be" I said hesitatingly as he was biting his lips waiting for my aproval, which he never does.

Following his motion, I closed the space between us to let our lips collide.

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AN

First real Jarry kiss ! (yes, I decided that Jarry's the ship name. Hahah) Yay !

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Love,

Aly x