Hindi naging madali ang third year life ko. Mabuti nalang at naging busy ako sa thesis ko noong first sem. Nawalan na ako ng oras para isipin pa ang mga problema. Pag dating naman ng second sem ay nagsimula na akong mag OJT sa company ng parents ko.
Madalang na kame magkita ni Ranz, kaya naman ngayong summer ay napagpasyahan naming mag-vacation na dalawa. Andito kame ngayon sa resort nila sa Batangas.
"Himala ata at hindi mo isinama si Harold. Honestly, I was really expecting he would come." I said while sipping my juice.
"Actually he's on his way. May hinintay lang siya."
"Hinintay? Ano naman?"
"Hindi ano Phia. Sino." she said and beamed a smile on me. And as if on cue ay nakita ko na si Harold na naglalakad papalapit samin at kasama niya si Jace.
This guy. Madalas naman kameng magkita pero hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit miss ko na siya. It's been what? 4 days seens we last saw each other. Yet I feel like I miss him this damn much. I must be crazy.
He said he had to finish some works kaya naman ngayon lang sila dumating.
"Masyado kang paimportante. Hinintay ka pa talaga ni Harold?" Naglalakad kame sa seashore. It felt nostalgic and bitter sweet. Sa beach din kame noon naging close ni Jace. At doon ko din naman nawala ang taong mahal ko.
I can't say I've totally moved on. He will always have a part in my heart. Hindi na nga lang tulad ng dati.
"Missed me?" he said giving me his teasing smile. I wanted to say 'yes' but that would make things awkward.
"Asa ka naman." he chuckled and pinched my cheeks telling how cute I am. Tss.
"Have you heard about Stephen?" I stiffed with the mere mention of his name.
"What about him?" I tried so hard to sound that I don't care.
"Pumunta na siya sa US. And he's with Viki." so what? pakasal na sila kung gusto nila! Ugh! I hate myself for sounding so bitter.
Jace hugged me. Hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi ako masanay na bigla nalang siyang manyayakap. Is he doing this on purpose? Chansing lang ata tong lalaking to!
"Ang pangit mong sumimangot. Yayakapin nalang kita para di ko makita yang mukha mo." Hinampas ko siya sa dibdib. Makapanlait naman akala mo sobrang gwapo. Oo, gwapo siya pero~ did I just say that?
Ginulo niya ang buhok ko at nagsimula na ulit kaming maglakad. Noong nagdesisyon kameng pumasok na ay nagpaalam si Jace na may kukunin lang sa kitchen, so I waited at the porch tutal naman maganda ang sunset.
Sana ganito nalang lagi. I wish my life is this peaceful. No worries and no heart aches. Ill be more that willing to pay for that little peace in my life.
"I love the sunset." I was too caught up in my reverie that I didn't even noticed Jace was already by my side.
"mm-hhm." I hummed, speechless of the view.
"What if he comes back?" he asked out of the blue. Sobrang biglaan yung tanong niya kaya hindi agad ako nakasagot. I hate 'what ifs'. It makes you want to believe, It gives you false hopes. The more you get your hopes high, the harder you fall.
"We had our shot. It just didn't work out."
"What if he has a reason?" I can sense that he knows something. He'll never insist on something he doesn't know.
"Even if he has a reason, he still chose to break me. And that, my friend, is enough reason for me to let go." I can't be stuck in a painful love forever. It's unhealthy and it will drive me insane.
I wasn't looking at Jace but I can feel him staring at me with his intent eyes. I looked at him and gave him an assuring smile. I don't need to take another chance with Stephen. I'm happy with what I have now.
