Fall For You

Chapter 8 - Flowers

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Chapter 8 - Flowers

Mabilis akong kumalas mula sa pagkakayakap niya sakin at marahas na tumayo. "Look, fun time's over. And please, don't ever say things like that ever again." Madiin na sabi ko dito.

I've just had enough of this. I know that I'm the one who put us in this position in the first place by tagging him along and telling my friends na boyfriend ko siya. But this is just too much. Too much.

Sabi ko sakanya I can't deal with real relationships and here he is, throwing words like marriage and whatnot like it's nothing.

"I told you, I can offer you friendship since we're in this mess. Pero kung magsasalita ka ng mga ganyan, then maybe we should just call it off. I'll tell my friends we broke up, and you tell your family whatever you want to tell them para mawala na tayo sa gulo na 'to." Mahabang litanya ko.

Malakas ang kabog ng dibdib ko habang sinasabi ko iyon. Fuck! I just can't deal with any of his sweet words and his sweet gestures anymore. And most of all, I can't deal with him saying things like papakasalan bullshit!

Lumambot ang mukha nito sa mga sinabi ko. "Addy..." He was about to say something when I cut him off.

"Stop right there." Umiling ako. "Sorry, okay? Sorry kung bigla kitang hinigit out of nowhere kagabi. But I think we're done here. Ipapacancel ko nalang lahat ng order mo. Just—go." Hahawakan ko na sana ang pinto ng office ko pero mabilis ako nitong napigilan.

Mabilis nitong nahawakan ang palapulsuhan ko. I immediately froze with his touch, mukha namang naramdaman niya iyon kaya bumitiw din ito agad. "Sorry." Sabi nito at tinignan ako ng deretso sa mata. "I'm sorry if you think I am going overboard. And I am sorry if that sounded different. But I meant every word I said."

My mind was all over the place. Fuck it!

"Please. Sabi ko sayo, I'm not ready to enter a real fucking relationship. Tapos ito ka talking about marriage and all." Tila hinihingal ako nang sabihin ko iyon dahil sa matinding pagkabog ng dibdib ko.

He sighed. "And I'm sorry, okay? Can we just start over? Hindi na mauulit, I swear. Let's be friends. Please. Just friends?" Seryosong sabi nito.

Huminga ako ng malalim. "I—I need a moment." Sabi ko bago siya iwan mag-isa sa office ko.

Mabilis ang naging lakad ko hanggang makarating ako sa restroom at pagkapasok na pagkapasok ko ay nag-unahan magsilabasan ang mga luha ko. Sumandal ako sa pintuan at doon ko iniyak lahat ng sakit.

I know I probably overreacted but marriage is a sensitive topic for me. It's not a joke, alright?

Damn it.

Hindi biro iyon. Because I was once promised that exact same thing.

Na papakasalan ako.

Na ihaharap ako sa altar.

He even gave me a ring, alright?

"One day, haharap tayo dito—in this exact same place, and I will marry you. I will marry you right here, Addy. One day. Promise."

"Marry me. Kapag successful na tayo pareho, at naabot na natin ang mga pangarap natin. Let's get married, alright? You and me."

But those promises were thrown out of the window—like it didn't mean anything.

Mas lumakas pa ang pag-agos ng luha ko ng maalala ko ang araw na iyon. Yung araw na dinala ako ni Arnold sa Manila Cathedral. He told me he'd marry me there. He promised na pag successful na kami, magpapakasal kami doon.