Fall For You

Chapter 23 - Closure

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Chapter 23 - Closure

"I love you, Addy." Tobi said before he leaned forward and kissed me.

"I love you, Addy." He said before kissing my forehead. "And I will always love you." Dagdag pa nito.

I smiled. "I love you too, baby." Sagot ko kay Arnold.

Mabilis kong tinulak si Tobi. "I—I'm sorry." Umiling-iling ako bago tumakbo palayo. Mabilis ang naging takbo ko. I don't even know how I managed to do that with the heels I'm wearing, but I don't fucking care anymore.

Paglabas ko ay agad akong pumara ng taxi. "Sa Manila Cathedral po." Sabi ko dito nang tumigil ito sa harap ko.

I silently thanked God na wala itong laman. I just need to get away from this place. From Tobi. From his words. From those words.

Those words.

I heard those exact words four years ago. At the same fucking place. The same fucking time. The same fucking instance.

Ganito din iyon, eh. DC ball din. Arnold was my date that time—noong mga panahong masaya pa kami. We were dancing, and laughing, and smiling at each other.

It was perfect.

We were perfect.

Pag-andar na pag-andar ng taxi ay agad na nagbagsakan ang mga luhang kanina ko pa pinipigilan. Iniyak ko lahat ng sakit ng nakaraan. Wala na akong pakialam sa iisipin ni Kuya Driver.

Fuck!

I hate this. I hate that I left Tobi like that. I hate that every fucking thing still reminds me of Arnold. I hate that everything in my life is still about him.

I hate that after all these years, ganito parin ang epekto ni Arnold sa akin.

Na kahit ang tagal tagal na, hindi parin nawawala yung butas na iniwan niya sa puso ko. That fucking hole is still there, and I'm afraid it will always be there—as a reminder that I once broke my heart by loving too much.

Halos mapatalon ako sa gulat ng magring ang phone ko mula sa bulsa ng gown ko. Mabuti nalang pala at may bulsa ang gown ko ngayon. At least I have my phone and key cles with me.

Kinuha ko ang phone ang agad na nakita ang mukha ni Tobi. 'Boyfriend Ko' that was what's written in there. I cried harder. Si Tobi ang naglagay ng pangalan na iyon sa phone ko. Nagulat nalang ako one night na iyon pala ang nilagay niya. But, it was fine so I let it go.

Tobi—he's good. He's always been good to me. He don't deserve to be caught up with my past. Hindi niya iyon deserve.

I ended his call. I just can't talk right now.

Pakiramdam ko kapag sinubukan ko magsalita ay mapapahagulgol nalang ako bigla. And I don't want that. It's already embarrassing enough to cry in front of Manong Taxi Driver, hindi na para humagulgol pa ako na parang bata dito.

Tobi tried to call again pero binaba ko lang ulit ang tawag.

And I silently thanked him for not calling back again, giving me a change to compose my message. Or two messages.

To: Boyfriend Ko
I'm sorry. I'm sorry for leaving like that. Let's talk tomorrow, okay?

I will talk to him tomorrow. Kapag handa na ako. Just not right now. Not now.

I hit send and typed in my second message.

To: Arnold
Can you meet me up? Manila Cathedral. I'll wait for you.