Where are you now? (Keith x Reader) [discontinued]

7|| Oboroten

I heard a knock on my door. "Come it!" I yelled. The doors slid open, revealing a pissed Keith.

"What the fuck did you want to talk about?"

"Look, I know you're mad, but there are things we need to discuss," I said calmly.

"Like our relationship? Because that's done," Keith spat. I choked back tears, trying not to feel sad over the fact we would never be able to trust or love each other again.

"N-no, about the lions. Shiro is gone, and we'll need a new leader."

"Why are you talking about this to me?"

"After Shiro, you were the best leader Keith," I continued, "Even through your temper, I saw a leader, one that cared about the team more than anyone else, a leader that was willing to die for them."

"I'm no leader," he scoffed. "I'm the loner, I can barely protect myself, let alone others."

"That's a lie. What about when you and Voltron saved the Balmera? And the other countless planets you rescued? You protect others more than you think. I know Shiro saw it in you too."

"The truth is.... Shiro actually wanted me to lead," Keith said, staring at his feet. "But I know I can't."

"Not if you think like that. I also wanted to talk about Red," I said, "If she'll let me, I can pilot her. I just wanted to make sure it would be okay with you."

"I still don't trust you, McClain. You aren't piloting any lion until you've gained back my trust!" He snapped, suddenly hostile. "I am keeping Red, and you will not pilot or co-pilot! Understood?"

"Keith..."

"Don't 'Keith' me! You lied about everything!"

Then the tears came. Flowing down my cheeks, angry hiccups making me jolt.

"I didn't lie about loving you! I wasn't going to leave you! I love you Keith! I know you'll never love me back, but I will love you until the day I die! You bastard!" I sobbed. "I don't deserve your trust! I don't deserve your love! I just want to help, but you've shut me out! I want to make up for what I've done! What about the fun moments we shared?? Those weren't fake! Training with you always made my day! And that damn sleepover months ago? I KNEW FROM THAT MOMENT THAT YOU WERE THE ONE!"

"Y-you really loved me? How can I trust you?"

"YOU'RE ACCUSING ME OF SOMETHING I DIDN'T DO! I KNOW I WAS SUPPOSED TO TURN YOU IN! I KNOW I WAS SUPPOSED TO KILL YOU! BUT I DIDN'T!! I DIDN'T BECAUSE I LOVE YOU! I DON'T CARE ABOUT SAVING THE UNIVERSE ANYMORE, I JUST WANT TO KNOW THAT YOU'LL RETURN MY FEELINGS WHEN THIS- THIS HELL OF A WAR IS OVER!"

I saw the tears roll down Keith's cheeks, and we both knew that the other was thinking of what this war had cost them.

"I- I'm sorry," Keith said, "but I can't trust you, not yet. I'm afraid you'll hurt my friends."

"We are both afraid Keith," I said, trembling. "But now you have to trust me. You saw me attack the witch, she is our biggest threat after Zarkon! You haven't been able to take her down, but I could! Also, I didn't know for sure that Haggar couldn't still kill my family, I only said that to keep my brother from the truth! I know losing them would break him more than it would break me. You don't realize that my family might be dead, and it would be your fault!"

"My fault?! Excuse me?"

"Yes! The only reason you aren't dead now is because I fell in love with you, but you're too stupid to see that! Let's just figure out the lions, win this fucking war, and we can part to our ways!" I snapped. I was done with this shit, I was tired of being doubted, tired of not being trusted. I didn't think as I spoke, but the words kept coming. "If you don't love me, fine! Just know that you'll lose someone who could have one day made you a part of the one thing you ever wanted: a family."