Where are you now? (Keith x Reader) [discontinued]

44|| Grief

A few days passed, and I guess you could day they were normal, something I hadn't experienced in over a decade. 

I looked around the small room I shared with Lance, since it had been our old room before I was abducted. It was a lot smaller than I remembered. I looked at the different posters plastered around the walls, and it made me smile. Old TV shows we watched, and some poster from some other bands I didn't recognize, but were probably put up by Lance in his teen years. I giggled. He was always such a fanboy.

"What's so funny?" Lance asked, walking in. I looked up, smiling.

"Oh nothing. I just discovered your obsession with One Direction, that's all."

Lance blushed a furious red. "Okay, that was when I was thirteen, so fuck off. They've disbanded anyway."

I giggled. "Who was it you had a crush on?"

"Shut up!"

"Who did Lance have a crush on now?" Keith smirked, leaning against the doorway. Lance went even redder.

"What're you doing in here?! This is my room!"

"Our room," I corrected. "And I say Keith gets to be in here."

Lance crossed his arms and sat on the bottom bunk bed, muttering angrily. I patted the spot beside me, signaling for Keith to sit up there with me. Without hesitation, the half Galra joined me on the bed. Lance groaned.

"Y'know what, I'm going to talk to Veronica," Lance said, walking towards the doorway. "You two better not start fucking." He slammed the door. I looked up at Keith to see his cheeks dusted with pink. 

"Ignore Lance, he just can't stand awkward situations, especially ones where he's made fun of."

"I know... it's just, there was something I wanted to talk to you about," Keith said, looking serious. I didn't like his tone or expression. Terrible scenarios started running through my mind. What if he didn't love me? Was he breaking up with me?

"O-Okay... what is it?"

"It's just..." Keith sighed. "Well, I got into contact with Adam, Shiro's fiancée, and we agreed that he should have a proper funeral. Jade, I really hate to ask, but would you come to Shiro's funeral? I don't want it to be too big, just something for the people he was closest to."

I felt guilty all of the sudden. How could I forget Shiro? How could I neglect Keith's feelings like that as well? I blinked back tears.

"K-Keith, you should've told me..." I looked back up at him, but he seemed to be avoiding my gaze. "I would've wanted to help."

"I just didn't want to ruin your happiness," Keith muttered. I wrapped my arms around him, then felt him squeeze me back.

"Keith, don't ever neglect something this important for my happiness, okay?"

"O-Okay."

***

A few hours later, we were at a nearby church that the McClains went to. I stood there in a borrowed black dress from Veronica, since we had decided on an Earthen funeral. I looked around at my black-clothed family and comrades. Everyone had a solemn expression, making the once cheery mood into something sad and depressing.

Holding Keith's hand, I walked into the church, waiting for the sermon to begin.

"We are gathered here today to rember Takashi Shirogane, a brave man who had been a hero on Earth..."

I didn't listen to the priest, I was too consumed in my emotion. Before, it had been so easy to accept Shiro's death, like he wasn't really gone, just away on a trip, or asleep. But being here now made it real. It was just like my Abuelo's funeral. Soon, people would go up and say all the good things about Shiro, maybe Adam or Keith, maybe both.