Labyrinth of Us

Chapter 58

Pagkalabas ko ng condo ni Eros ay naabutan ko sila Shane na nasa labas at naghihintay. Dumiretso sila sa pagkakatayo at nabahid ng pag aalala ang mukha nila ng makita nila ang itsura ko.

Umiwas ako ng tingin at sinabing gusto ko ng umuwi.

Hindi ko alam kung narinig ba nila ang pinag-usapan namin ni Lake, ni hindi ko nga napansin na hindi pala sila sumunod sa akin.But I'm glad that they gave us our privacy to talk

Sumunod agad sa akin sila Shane, nauna na akong sumakay sa kotse at mabuti nalang at habang bumabyahe ay walang nagtanong sa akin. Kasi kung meron, hindi ko alam kung masasagot ko ba sila.

Binaba nila ako sa kung saan kami kanina lumabas, nagpaalam sila sa akin na hindi na sila papapasok at mauuna na sila dahil may aasikasuhin sila pa para sa on field nila

Tumango nalang ako.

Naabutan ko ang mga Kuya ko na nasa sala at nakatutok sa t.v. Ni hindi nila naramdaman ang pagdating ko dahil masyado silang nakafocus sa kung ano mang pinapanood nila

Dumaan ako sa likod nila at sa ginawa kong yun, nakita ko ang kasalukuyang pinapalabas sa television, it's Timothy's press conference

Napahinto ako sa dapat kong pag-akyat sa kwarto.

Gusto kong mapanood pero mas lamang ang kagustuhan kong mapag-isa muna. Kaya habang hindi pa ako napapansin nila Kuya ay umakyat na ako sa kwarto ko.

I locked the door and quickly lay on my bed. Dumapa ako sa kama at hindi ko na napigilan ang pagdaloy ng mga luha ko.

Inaalala ko ang napag-usapan naming kanina ni Lake.

I wonder if what's he's doing right now. Sana naman hindi na siya umiinom kasi alam ko naman na hindi siya mahilig dun.

He should be busy right now making his name in the industry pero dahil sa akin ay nagmumukmok siya, and I know that I am not worth it.

I never lied when I said that I love him. It's true.

It's just different from what I felt for Timothy

I love Lake but not as much as I love Timothy to the extent that I'm willing to risk everything for him.

Lake made my heart pound, he made it flutter, while Timothy made it beat like a drum, everytime he's near, I feel like it's going to come out of my ribcage, but nonetheless, I'm always happy, happy that my heart beats that way for him.

I am happy whenever I'm with Lake but when I'm with Timothy, I feel like I'm in a different world, that's how much happiness he can make me feel, and I'd like to experience that everyday.

When I'm with Lake, everything feels comfortable, secure, and it's different from what I feel when I'm with Timothy, because with Timothy, I know that there are risks, risks of getting hurt more than what I can bare but he can also give me what's always more than enough, more than what I needed.

I know that Lake is always the safe choice, because with him, everything is just in the middle, average, and if ever that I will be hurt, it will never hurt as much that it can kill me. But nonetheless, I still want the dangerous choice because eventhough loving Timothy might hurt me a lot, I know that it will never equal the happiness that he can make me feel.

I thought about this a lot before I decided to give Timothy a chance.

Kasi alam kong mahal ko din si Lake, so I settled what I'm really feeling between the two of them

And I came up with this realization

Although my love for Lake is genuine.

Timothy is not just my true love but my fierce love. The one that I am willing to give up my whole. So I'm never gonna let him go.