Lights, Cameras, Outsiders!

Chapter 16

LCO 16

They admitted me and ultimately decided it was a miscarriage and I would have to be in the hospital for a few days. That took little to no time to figure that and by the time Matt came back, he didn't know where we went. He went to every floor and asked the nurses station before he finally found me. I was with Emilio and he was telling me he called Susie at the hotel when Matt came in.

"Hey, how you doin'?" Matt said coming in and giving me a kiss.

"I'm fine, I'm fine," I said.

"Then, then what's all this, huh? All these wires and needles, what is this?" He picked at the tubes running through my hand.

"What'd they say was wrong with you?" He said. I placed my palm on his cheek.

"A miscarriage."

"But you're not even pregnant. We told the doctor downstairs that."

"No, Matt, you didn't know."

"So you're pregnant?"

"Well not anymore. But I was." He stood up and put my book on the table and kind of paced.

"Hey, are you okay?" Emilio said.

"Mil, can you just excuse us for a little bit?" Matt said.

"Ok. I'll meet Susie downstairs," he said before leaving.

"You seriously were pregnant and didn't tell me?!"

"No."

"Why?"

"Because I thought you'd leave me or just be really Mad."

"I wouldn't have left you! Yeah I'd be upset but not like upset enough to leave you! God..."

"Well it's taken care of now, it's gone now."

"Yeah and did you intentionally do something to make that happen?"

"No! Doctor said it wasn't something I did. These things can just happen."

"Just tell me something Essie. When did you exactly plan and telling me you were going to give birth to my child?"

"I don't know!"

"And does Susie know?"

"No!"

"And well that's the end of this. She'll send you right back home to your folks!"

"Stop it, I've been thinking about that."

"I just don't understand how you couldn't tell me."

"MATT. I'm NOT pregnant. It's over. Once I'm out of here, life's like it was before with the pizza parties and the arcade dates and the costume and the filming."

"I know that but it just really makes me mad that you didn't tell me..."

"I need air," he said before walking out

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I suffered the wrath of Susie later on. She threatened to send me back home but told I better thank God I had a miscarriage so I could stay. She finally calmed down and said to act like it never happened and then proceeded to apologize and cried and said she didn't want to fight and then she had a glass of wine with David at an Italian restaurant.

Matt came in later that night.

"Look I'm sorry about earlier. I got kind of... Mad and upset. But I'm not mad now," he spit it out once he entered the room.

"It's fine, Matt."

"No I don't want to fight. And we're not going to. No one's going to know about this."

"Fine. Then don't tell anybody."

"Well the greasers know, but no body else does. Did Susie say anything about not seeing me anymore?"

"No. She was just a little upset that maybe we didn't take precautions so from now on... Precautions," I said.

"So once you're outta here, we can go grab a beer."

"A beer?"

"I think as long as you're on this parent rebellious path you're on, you may as well continue."

"Yeah I'll get a beer with you."